Itinerary

Apr. 23rd, 2013 10:03 am
altarflame: (Ahem (sebastion))
This summer's shaping up to have a lot of cool opportunities and interesting stuff for everybody. I've been in a frenzy of emails, calls, forms and combing the calendar for the last two days, as always happens this time of year. And then again before fall.

So far this is what we've got on the table as probable, counting summer as basically anything that happens after today since a lot of it begins in May:

Tina/Mom/me:

-5 classes at FIU, broken into 3 for Summer A term and 2 for Summer B. I actually have my schedule and financial aid in place since getting accepted, and am now setting up incidentals like going to get my student ID, having my parking pass mailed to me and acquiring my book advance/books.
-gardening - currently I have 3 flowering plants on the front porch, succulents and basil on the deck, about 40 houseplants, and a whole mess of seedlings in the house that will be transitioned to a raised bed in the coming weeks: white and flamingo chard, spinach, red and romaine lettuce, and lavender (for Isaac's anxiety, we're talking about it all along the way...we also have a "life cycle of a seed" poster hanging in our dining room these days).
-counseling. I finally made contact with somebody yesterday, like nails on a chalkboard though it was, and she's supposed to be calling me back about our insurance today. This is actually Grant and I both, separately and then together
-Writing dammit. It might be more like 2 hours per weekend rather than the hour per day I've been trying to strive for, but I can live with that if all this other stuff is happening.
-also with Grant, and "hopefully" - acquiring a second car, again (we sold the Civic awhile back, too many problems)

Ananda:

-regularly scheduled cello rehearsals on Sundays, and derby practice Sundays and Wednesdays, for awhile more at least
-6 hour training to be a program aide for girl scout camps, in May
-part of the color guard made up of junior derby players for the adult bout on the same day in May O_o
-GMYS finale concert THE NEXT DAMN DAY good grief
-going paintballing with her derby team later on in the month
-3 weeks of Girl Scout camp in June and July, 2 as a Program Aide (volunteer/helper basically, then next year she'll get to be a Counselor In Training) and one as a regular ol' Girl Scout
-Somewhere in the midst of that, attending the Southern Regional Junior Derby...whatever it's called, rally or some shit up in central Florida - this will involve her team being in their first two bouts!*
-auditioning into whatever ensemble for GMYS for the fall, before the summer is over - I'd also like to try to get her some kind of supplemental cello learnin' but it basically has to be free so either a public school program, a magnet she only goes to the music portion of, or this Frost mentor program...we'll see
-she also wants to look into starting to volunteer at the library, we'll see, and has a goal of "being at sleepovers as often as possible this summer"
-which could be related to the whole "SHE'S TURNING 13 ON JUNE 1!!!!" thing

Aaron:

-hip hop on Saturdays and jazz dance on Thursdays**, til the eventual Dance Empire end of year recital
-I'm basically trying to decide whether to try to get him into a camp at Dance Empire or just sign him up for their intensive weeks, and/or their summer classes
-either way he wants to do ballet technique classes again, which is interesting to me and they're offered on Saturdays in one big block so yeah sure he doesn't have to pay ~shrug~ They're offering 7-15 yo barre and stretch, 7-15 yo turn and jump, 7-15 yo open ballet and pre-point for 10-16 year olds as a 4 hour long extravanganza, and he's aghast at how inflexible he's supposedly become ever since someone complimented him on his extensions (?) last week. Dancers!
-I'm sure there will be some epic TLC party before a couple of families leave town for the summer as they generally do, and he will be in like flynn
-whatever we decide to do for his birthday on June 27th (he'll be 12)

Isaac:

-the rest of the school year obviously, which features the talent show he's doing a jump rope act in this Friday
-GMYS camp for a month***, now on clarinet
-birthday party in June for a PATH kid he loves

Jake:

-GMYS camp for a month, hopefully playing drums (HE HATES THE VIOLIN SO MUCH)
-birthday party in June for a PATH kid he loves

Elise:

-turning SIX on May 1 - we're going to the Seaquarium**** because she had no idea such wonders existed, but we have been on a big Squid YouTube kick that's somehow led into whales, and she is PSYCHED. Also, she keeps asking for a science lab so we're going to do our best to set that up as her birthday present with like, basic common kitchen ingredients common to many experiments and a space allocated in the house with a table Grant's made, and some little accessories - she will love it
-those 3 weeks of Girl Scout camps that Annie will be at, albeit in separate age groups of course
-GMYS camp for a month, back on violin

All Kids:

-(well, minus Isaac in this instance) homeschool yearly evaluations
-(and plus me in this one) dental checkups/cleanings



*It will probably be Grant taking her to paintballing and the rally, for a variety of reasons - also, Grant is not travelling anymore in the forseeable immediate future, under his new supervisor that's looking like a more quarterly sort of thing...and he works from home on the days I'll be in school.

**I actually found another Dance Empire parent IN HOMESTEAD who is WILLING AND ABLE TO CARPOOL, this is life changing people, seriously, wow. I am excited.

***the little kids' camp is actually IN HOMESTEAD, good grief A&A's was insanely far last summer, that was a circus

****If you are a AAA member, in the month of May you can go to the AAA office and get a (discounted!) Seaquarium ticket, and then take it to the Seaquarium, and they will give you another one free. Since the Seaquarium is absurdly, disgustingly, prohibitively overpriced, this is a big deal that can potentially make it possible to go. It ends up being $36 plus tax for two adults, rather than $80.
altarflame: (chalk)
The other day, when we were all sick with sore throats, I kept going back out to the deck and picking lemon balm to make us tea. And I was struck by how my basil is sprouting up, and my tree is covered in mangoes, and I have bananas coming in two different yards, and eggs in the coop every day. Walking around with the camera today, I found a pumpkin vine in and amongst the weeds sprouting on some bricks in the backyard! I weeded everything else out, pruned it a little, watered it and am happy as heck. The kids are also excited. I am thinking white pumpkins based on a similar vine my friend Kristin had magically appear in her yard a couple of years ago.

Photographic Tour of my productive land )

I woke up from a nap the other day, and Ananda and Aaron had made a band:

There's a girl with a ponytail and one of them has a mike on a stand in front of them.

I was amazed. Mohawk guy with guitar on stand:


Keyboard player:


I have done so much Usborne work this week, it is where every spare moment has gone. Productivity is lucrative. Some points:
-We're having a show at our local bookstore, and my mil (who works at the paper) is getting a write-up done about Aaron for publicity - "Local boy dancing in NYC competition" or something like that to drum people up.
-I met with two people from the Miami Children's Hospital Foundation yesterday afternoon and have a meeting with the head of their library next Monday afternoon.
-I've got home shows coming up out in the Redlands, down in the Keys and up in Miami, as well as three others "in the works" (they want to do it in the Fall, or haven't said for sure yet)

I'm also advertising a yard sale in the paper and planning it for next Saturday morning. Gathering stuff...I've mostly got a few outgrown bikes and a ton of disguarded purses, along with some outgrown kids' clothes and a tiny but of miscellany. I'm also going to be selling baked goods and possibly Usborne books, though.

Basically I am in super crazy hyper must-make-money mode. I was praying the other morning, up before everyone else to drive around having meetings - I was down to the wire with getting Ananda's registration in for girl scout day camp by the deadline. Two weeks of camp, already picked from all the themes - $130 each. AND THEN I REMEMBERED! I payed for this big old chiropractic package and then went to just one visit and found out that due to my "structural deformities" (diastasis, hernia) he can't help me. This was a long time ago actually. I drove over there and got my refund check - and it was $260! I was like, alright. Thank you very much. And sent off my forms.

I am about to shift from Usborne All The Time to Agents All The Time for a few days. I look at it as short term and long term financial planning.

A )

I cooked up a storm last night so we could eat all day without my cooking anything. We had chocolate cupcakes for breakfast, curried chickpeas on jasmine rice for lunch, and lentil soup for dinner.

Tomorrow Ananda's going to Christina's house and Aaron and Isaac are going to a birthday party, for most of the day. Grant and I will probably take Jake and Elise swimming somewhere, like over at Laura's or in Grant Sr's new above-ground. Every now and then I entertain the idea of getting one of those cheapy "everything in a box" above ground pools for like, 5 seconds, and then come back around to the image of Elise floating face down in water and figure we can wait a few years. This is why one of our criteria for home buying was "does not have a pool".


Other than all that:
-Elise is currently right on the line between "low end of normal speech development" and "speech delayed". I am trying to take it upon myself to have more conversations with her, as well as prompting her to use more "connecting" words - because she has a massive and ever-growing vocabulary. But she doesn't really form sentences. She'll come to me and say, "Mama bathroom, chichens, me see!" Not, "I'm going to see the chickens in your bathroom!" Everything is like that. She'll come to me saying "Dada phone, me hi" (I want to call Dad on the phone and say hi) and when she gets it, she'll tell him "Me sick. Miss, my Dad. Love, my Dad. But - mama home, me! Mama lap now. Dada home, hug! Bye." She has way above average comprehension, whether for pointing things out in books or performing complex tasks. She will sit and listen as I read chapter books to Ananda and Aaron and suddenly interject and shock me - "Boy sad, no more eat?" That's right, he's sad because he's hungry and all the food is gone. She also counts and knows all of her colors well (and has done both for quite awhile) as well as singing along with most of the alphabet. We'll see I guess.

-I am tired AS HELL of this sinus headache, sore throat sickness. OVER it. It's turning my already abysmal attempts at sleeping into miserable failures.

-Season 3 of Weeds has not been as good as Season 2.

-I am experiencing a great deal of anxiety when I think about this oil spill, and an uncommonly high level of (obviously related) guilt and confusion about my own priorities re: oil consumption. I am really caught in the middle, not nearly apathetic enough to just be blissfully driving everywhere all the time - but also too selfish to stop driving all the time. I want things for my children, and myself, and our family - like going to top dance schools and NYC competitions but also having chickens and a garden - that are not part of a sustainable model. I want my husband to work where he can make enough money for a certain lifestyle that involves internet, cell phones, movies and dinners out at times, and me staying home - but I don't want to live anywhere NEAR where those jobs are... I live in the absolute worst part of the country for car-reliance and suburban sprawl, and so it is heartbreaking, gut-wrenching justice of sorts for us to see all the beaches and reefs and animals and jobs destroyed :/ *big fucking sigh* I keep wishing desperately for things that seem like partial or complete solutions - a way more reliable, quicker, safer public transit system that runs 24 hours, for instance. Hybrid and electric minivans. We looked for them when we had the settlement, they were (are) only available in Japan. To some degree it seems like the only answer is to move away, but that is not even an option I can consider - this is and has always been home, it is where my and Grant's entire families are.
But something has to happen. I have to start writing letters, and voting for the right things, and taking the bus sometimes, and SHIT I really don't think people understand how big this is. How huge. How many people are unemployed. How they're BURNING ENDANGERED SEA TURTLES ALIVE. How the loop current is going to catch hold of all this and take it all the way to the Carolinas. How they don't know what happens when a hurricane hits a billion gallons of oil. How we can't replace the reefs, or the Everglades. Ever. Just gone forever if they're gone once...

I wonder how much more painful and personal this all seems to me because I've been looking at this water and going on glass bottom boats and wading out on sandbars my whole life. We hang out in the everglades as a thing to do. But...your seafood's going to cost more. Your taxes are going to go up. Your vacation plans are going to change. Your air is going to be dirtier. Your kids will never get to see things my kids have taken for granted. The Bahamas, Cuba, so much gorgeous blue-green-gray-and previously CLEAR is seeming so temporary right now. So surreal.


So I'm sitting here with Google Maps open looking at how Dance Empire goes from 29 minutes by car to an hour and 2 minutes by bus, how it goes from Elise taking a nap to us all walking several blocks on roads without sidewalks in the sweltering heat. On the other hand, I could use more excercise and we could sure save on gas and it might be kind of awesome to actually be able to like, hang out with and engage my kids while traveling. I think we have to at least try it.

Along with the letter writing and voting and so on...
altarflame: (Default)
Tonight my husband got a sheet of printing paper, drew streets and stores all over it, and then went and got a bunch of the little boys' matchbox cars and came and set them all over it, all to illustrate for me how rudely someone cut him off in a parking lot on his lunch break. This really cracks me up. Grant is the kind of person who will do just anything for anyone who asks it of him, and who hates judging others, and yet he has this INSANE ROAD RAGE that drives him to petty art work and children's toys in his desperation to convey how horrible the situation was - 10 hours later.

To-Do Lists are pretty much the only thing I generally make private entries for, but this time I'm sticking it here. Partially just because I'm lazy and wanted to share the car thing.

-up at 7:30
-rote prayer
-Wii yoga
-kids up at 8, dressed
-breakfast all together
-morning chores, pet care
-ready postcards for mailing
-timelines with Story of the World printouts - catching up on reading with Isaac

-Letter of the Week with 3 little kids and all that crap I printed out
-science for big kids
-lunch, and figure out what is for dinner,
-spanish from workbooks
-walk, all together
-baths/showers all around
-figure out how to write enough to make money on some kind of schedule
-mail those stupid evaluation papers if I can figure out the right address and have everything I need her, otherwise get it all ready for PO Monday
-devotional and bible reading
-cook, eat and bedtime
-laze about, with Grant who will thankfully be off for days in a row.


Sunday is like, Mass, him making a big breakfast, City Church, sub shop, Anne's Beach where we meet up with his Dad and a jet ski - do I push visiting Key West? I think I might. My Aunt DD is supposed to be back down, my Pa is still hanging in there, I miss my crazy ass Dad and my mom has some ashes she needs me to pick up. Of all things.

Hopefully sometime Monday/Tuesday, we can get tons of flower bed digging, soil picking up, garden planting and general mowing and weed eating done as a whole family effort...this yard is alternately AWESOME...and REALLY OVERWHELMING. But I love getting out there and DOING it, so. There it is I guess.

Wait. We're going skating with PATH on Monday, basically right up until A and A's dance classes start. At least I can write during their classes. Also Tuesday morning is produce pickup and Aaron has a dance class at the Fall's location, that evening, during which I can possibly finally see this Teavana shop Laura told me about...

Hmm.
altarflame: (Elise genius.)
I love the synergy in our backyard.

I needed basil tonight for dinner. So I was cutting some in the backyard. Jake and Elise followed me out, and started eating cherry and grape tomatoes off the vines. I noticed the cilantro and mint needed pruning, so I gave the cuttings to Aaron to take to the rabbits, that flip (sometimes literally) over fresh herbs. We compost the rabbit poop because it makes great fertilizer. I can garden easily with the chickens distracting the little kids. I can use leftovers as chicken feed when I realize we're out of chicken feed. Like today. They got black beans, bulghur wheat and old stale veggie straws, which is actually surprisingly nutritionally sound for a chicken. The chickens will be laying eggs for us, in a couple more months.

In addition to being covered in almost-ripe mangoes, our mango tree has a bird's nest in it, now. We watch the mother bird come and go. She wisely chose a spot that is almost completely shielded by a privacy curtain of leaves. But today, we found part of one of the tiny eggs on the ground under the tree and the three oldest passed it around for almost half an hour in total amazement.




Elise is wearing underwear!

She is not exactly toilet trained. But she controls her urges and doesn't really have accidents, either - basically she hasn't peed or pooped while we are out or in a bed (she sleeps naked most of the time...) in a long time. And she's naked a lot of the day if we're home. Whenever she has to pee, she runs to the laundry room, finds a dirty towel, and stands on it and pees. I have tried and tried and TRIED to get her to pee on the toilet, and she has a little mini-seat on one of them with a step stool and sometimes asks to try, but it's only worked twice. When she has to poop, she knows way beforehand and talks about it a LOT prior to, but can't seem to START on the toilet...if she's started and I rush her to the toilet she'll finish there and be so happy about it. Otherwise she ends up pooping on the floor and immediately telling me so I can clean it up, and then she flushes it and we talk about how she needs to just do it in there to begin with. Sometimes she rushes out to the yard and poops outside and then comes in to report it. *sigh*

This is eerily similar to what I went through with all three boys. The problem seems with all of them to be/have been that they only want to go when standing and are used to only going while standing, when diapered. Which is great in that it means nobody gets their lap dirtied and beds are safe for laying in, even with a one year old... But it's a really big adjustment to try to make it happen while sitting down.

It is awesomely cute seeing her in tiny little panties though. She is EXTREMELY proud of them. And I've taken her out for whole afternoons running around twice now, that way, with no accidents. As soon as we come inside the house again, she strips down, and goes to find a towel to pee on. Or, waits through me trying to sit her on the toilet first, acts like she's straining, gets bored, and then runs to find a towel to pee on. I'm having to wash towels a lot more often, with pre-rinses and Oxyclean. No diapers, though, and the towels are already dirty anyway. *shrug*


She is using more and more 2 and 3 word phrases and pseudo-phrases. "no more" "no way" "My mommy" "Jakey Isaac ur" (Jake and Isaac hurt me, usually following some kind of rough play accident), "Chicks eat" (when we feed them), "Cat bite", etc.

Considering that she just turned 2 May 1, she is impressing me :)
altarflame: (After the kiss)
General Health
-as in charting everything I eat via Weight Watchers points
-excercise, like riding bikes for 40 minutes Sunday with Aaron, walking with the double stroller (J&E) for an hour Monday, swimming with Annie for an hour yesterday
-general rollercoaster between feeling accepting of myself and good about my progress, and self-loathing with fits of disgust and hopelessness(that is usually a 15 minute burst when I try to find something to wear each morning or fresh from the shower).

Re-establishing my faith in a deeper way
-church had a big communion service and we sang Amazing Grace and I was basically a happy wreck. Then came a week of spiritual battle type stuff that had me struggling bad, and now I feel like I've sort of come out the other side.
-plus it's Lent, and I keep revisiting that, mentally and with study

Grant and I
-There is a lot of lingering weariness in him from my long year of being severely complicated, sensitive, sleepless and hysterical (FOR ME!!) from ptsd
-and lingering resentment from us having to wade through what is ok with both of us, for either of us, in a bunch of different ways
-but we still hug and kiss and mean it everyday...and go to bed happy everynight. It's just been too many strained, pained conversations ending with cuddling and sighs.
-I am really fucking blessed to have a man who goes to scripture when he's mad at me and comes back talking about how he's supposed to sacrifice himself to me as Christ sacrificed himself for all of us, acting genuinely humble and saying it's time for a massage. I mean...*blinkblink*

Gardening
-tomatos need staked soon, basil seeds have finally popped out through the dirt, it all gets watered every other day
-butterfly garden flower assortment has yet to pop through, watering that flower bed about three times a week
-lantanas in the front are starting to get overgrown, we fixed the falling brick wall yesterday and I'll be pruning them asap
-new and newly transplanted gardenia is getting pruned as the flowers die and it and this other thing I have on the front porch get watered daily
-all the philodendrons on top of the kitchen cabinets need to be watered once a week, which is only noteworthy because I have to use a stepladder
-trying to keep Isaac watering his little window garden that he got for his birthday...the seedlings are looking battered, though

Kids!
-A and A have been doing Abeka and cursive practice about every other day, and we've gotten them back into RightStart math manipulatives and science experiments here and there throughout the week
-they LOVE church and I get compliments every week that they go
-I'm reading her an Amelia Earheart biography and him a Harry Houdini bio, so they can get ready to dress up as those people and talk about "themselves" at PATH's "Historically Speaking" event later this month
-they're starting our local Friday School (a homeschool co-op deal where we all volunteer and pool resources) - she in ceramics, Junior Chefs and piano, and him probably in tai kwon do, piano and chess
-they're both really puberty-oriented lately, constantly asking me questions and pouring over their boy and girl versions of "What's Happening to Me?" with and without me
-and then there's AWANA on Weds, PATH on Thursdays, Game Night on Fridays...
-we're trying to get Jake and Elise out of our bed in earnest
-Isaac and I spent a long time browsing around blogs, flickr groups and tutorial sites yesterday and now there are multiple things he wants me to make him, that I've promised him in priority order (starting with a vine hung with flowers to hang along his wall)
-reading to youngest three everyday, even if just one book each
-ELISE PEED IN THE POTTY FOR THE FIRST TIME!!! We aren't pushing her at all, but we've made it available and talk about it sometimes and she's naked about half the day so long as we're home and inside
-trying to be consistent and serious enough to get Jake's temper under control

Writing
-Seven of 12 short stories for a themed collection are done
-Title, outline, table of contents, intro and beginning of first chapter are done for c/s book, and I've also amassed a long, long file including book titles, studies done, documentaries to watch, people to interrogate, university libraries I need to plunder online, etc, labeled "RESEARCH"
-email to myself full of possible agents for these things, previously completed works and another book I'm not ready to talk about, done, so I can start querying people
-I think about this stuff all day long but only get to work on it if I can outlast everyone and still concentrate, late at night, or in the 1-6 hours I get when Grant is off, to go off on my own for writing (just depends on everything else going on). And I'm working on a lot at once. So it's all very slow going, which I'm dealing with pretty well.

Animal Care
-cats need new food twice a day and new litter once a week
-chicks need to be checked on fairly often, have recently moved on from a little paper lined bird cage to the big portable rabbit pen on top of a spread-out sleeping bag, and make a giant mess of my office on a regular basis with their dust and fluff and scratching and shredding of paper. They'll be outside in a run/coop soon, and suddenly be much simpler then
-rabbits are "A and A's responsibility", which means I have to constantly remind them to change the box, check their water, get chewables off their bedroom floor, and oversee time the bunnies spend running around the house/help lure them out from under the couch to go back to the bedroom

tv/movies with G at night
-We only watch downloads and things from hulu.com, no cable or whatever, but that still means Lost and The Office every week. Usually a day or two late, which means Thursday is a fearful day I avoid the internet because SPOILERS ARE EVERYWHERE.
-and in the last week we've seen Smart People(we'll finish this tonight...), He Was a Quiet Man(very dissapointing, typical "independant film" ending),Secretary (again), Henry Poole is Here(mind-numbingly dull, I think we both fell asleep 3/4 of the way through and were relieved when it ended)

CROCHET!
-I'm totally addicted to the granny square and hexagon love pools on flickr, every project Attic24 posts, and a couple of books of my own
-I have this massive pile of Lion Brand wool-ease yarn that I rearrange in different color combinations and a notebook full of project ideas with url or page notations, and it's all changing all the time


Overall, I am very busy in a relaxed way, my house is a total mess almost all of the time, and I'm happy :)

Content.

Feb. 28th, 2009 10:33 pm
altarflame: (Guess What?)
I was up until 4 or so last night, researching agents.

How to get one.
Who is looking for what type of material.
Submission requirements.
Standard contracts.

I was almost vibrating with how real it all seems. I told Grant, I can easily imagine querying 30 different people and getting all rejections.

But, I can also imagine 4 accepting me and getting to choose.

Today was an incredibly productive, positive day. A Grant at work day. I...

-cooked eggs on toast, turkey bacon and sliced kiwi, for breakfast.
-pasta puttanesca for lunch
-italian soup and cheddar garlic biscuits for dinner
-ate, talked, prayed with all of my kids for all of those meals
-counted points and divvied things out accordingly (ww)
-loaded the dishwasher 3 times
-had a risque phone conversation with Grant (bom chicka wah wah)
-cleaned out the whole long flower bed that runs the length of our deck (overdue)
-transplanted the small gardenia shrublet I have into a bigger pot
-moved all the new soil from the van to the garden area
-put together our new composter (and loaded it up with all the weeds from the flowerbed...)
-changed diapers
-talked to Dama on the phone
-entertained Laura and Brian, who made it over to see our chicks
-oversaw tons of chores and animal care
-cleaned
-got Elise down for a nap
-orchestrated multiple bubble baths and a movie viewing

And spent at least an hour out in the side yard, with the bunnies in their pen in the grass and the chicks roaming around free with us.

I took a lot of pictures during that part )

Days.

Feb. 27th, 2009 12:52 am
altarflame: (DeathbyChores)
The kids and I spent the entire day out today, going from store to store with stops to have lunch on our front porch, to address and send mail, and to eat dinner, and now we are set to start gardening. We really wanted to get a raised-bed system or parts to make one ourselves, but there is just...nothing...at any place we went to. And we were being very inventive, more than ready to use an old-school plastic baby pool even, once we saw that outdoor ponds were too unevenly deep at their centers, (but nobody sells those anymore, now that the giant inflatable pools have taken over...) So Grant is going to bust out the Big Man Tools (TM) and make one, at some point in the next couple of weeks when he's off, and in the meantime we got containers to put seeds and seedlings in for now. They'll probably be reused for flowers or put on freecycle once our permanent setup is in place. There are lots of places online to get raised bed systems or pieces to be assembled, but they're all hundreds of dollars plus shipping, which seems kind of ridiculous to me O_o The sandbox may be delegated as a garden, too, now that the sand is gone (AND GOOD RIDDANCE I WAS SO TIRED OF SAND!).

We're growing red and green bell peppers, and poblano and jalapeno peppers; grape, cherry, roma, heirloom and beefsteak tomatoes; and various herbs, namely mint, oregano, basil and cilantro. These are all things we use in great enough abundance, and that are pricey enough in stores, that I think they make sense to devote some effort and maintenance to. They're also crops that do well in our blazing, incessant sun and heat. Oh, I forgot broccoli! Ananda and Aaron got some strawberries and lavender as their own side project, and are going to research ways to use the lavender (like making satchels or soap or something). She already wants her own etsy store, ever since Gloria taught her how to finger knit she's been a scarf-making fool.

When I consider that we'll be able to go into our backyard for not just vegetables and herbs, as we have at various points in the past, but also EGGS...I eat it up, no pun intended :p How awesome is this? We will have a suburban farm, bwahahaha.

I can imagine myself getting a sheep sometime in the future. To sheer and make yarn from. I mean "10 years from now" future, though...a golden retriever in a couple of years will probably be the only animal addition over the next decade, because while I love having pets around, I really dislike a lot of constant maintenance and the way they complicate road trips...Everything we have now is perfectly fine if we set them up with self-feeders and dissapear for the weekend, and none of them intimidate potential animal-sitters for longer time periods.

Yesterday was also a good day, I got a lot of writing I'm very happy about done while Grant took the kids to the park, and before that they and I just had another good day...and tomorrow we're all set to spend the whole day transplanting seedlings and planting seeds, and researching their "historical characters" - Ananda and Aaron are participating in an event called "Historically Speaking" wherein they learn all about, and then dress up as and get up and talk as though they ARE, some historical character of their choosing. Annie picked Amelia Earhart, and Aaron Harry Houdini.

We also got a mini, cushy toilet seat to fit on a big toilet, for Elise, and a step stool, and she is excitedly making every member of the house go in with her to look at it, in turn, so she can point excitedly and yell, "PEE!" and then point towards where her pee comes out. She has not actually peed on a toilet, ever, but asks me to sit her on one and tries to fairly regularly, so this seemed better than me holding her there while she looks nervous about falling in.

So this is all great, right? Except...

My house is a giant disaster. Every single room is completely trashed. The library table is PILED with books that are slipping off onto the floor as new ones are added, the tv room has megablocks and the contents of a sock basket strewn all over it, the kitchen sink and counters have been swallowed by dishes, the laundry room is an absolute avalanche...etc. Every single room.

And honestly? I don't care that much. We're all happy, it's not a gross mess, we do have clean clothes to wear and the table clean for each meal and furniture available to sit on, and it's not as though ANYONE other than me seems to notice the grit on the tile or smudges on the walls...

But. My Aunt Deana is supposed to be dropping by tomorrow. I see her in the "every couple of years" range, and she's never been to our new house before. *sigh*

I imagine that if I get Isaac to clean out the big closet, Aaron the kids' bathroom, Annie the tv room and library clutter, and Jake and Elise random things I hand them to take to their right places, I could manage to sweep, swiffer, vaccum, do a million dishes, scrub counters, organize shelves and tackle our bedroom in...a couple of hours? :x

I know it has to be done. And I even have some added motivation now because [livejournal.com profile] babyslime is demanding a video tour. But uuuuuugggh.




I'm ordering multi-disk sets of Reading Rainbow and Postcards From Buster from PBS.com tonight, to keep in the van, where we have a dvd player that I've decided is conveniently ok for educational purposes. Both of those shows are beyond words, by the way, and just priceless.

I'm still reading, and reading about, Edna St Vincent Millay in my spare time, i.e., while on the toilet and/or when nursing Elise to sleep in the afternoon. I have enough to read about and by her that I imagine I'll be doing it for awhile. Elise loves it when I get to verse in one of the books, and read it out loud. All of my kids have had such a love for listening to poetry, and yet it still always surprises me when I see it.

It's Lent, and I am aware of that, and I have a devotional book to read one day at a time - Show Me the Way by Orthodox writer Henri J. M. Nouwen - but I am not really giving anything up, this year. And was taken woefully by surprise, by Ash Wednesday. If nothing else comes of this season, this year, at least I am thinking about my faith that much more often, from the awareness that it's happening...

I found an old friend on Facebook and it made me really happy.

I bought this dress while we were at Target on garden detail, and am wearing it now:

I'm using the hangy things in front to tie around my neck, and it works out.




Food. Hmm.

I have serious emotional eating problems that go way, way back into childhood. Weight Watchers has been surpringly doable for me, because of the way you can work the points system, but. Well. Honesty.

I've been between 223-229 lbs ever since I got out of the hospital last. 2007 totally ballooned my weight, the multiple 6 week recovery periods from surgeries just turned me into some sort of blob...and left me with a lot more emotion to eat over.

When I started WW, I listed my activity level as "mostly standing" and my breastfeeding status as "exclusively nursing", because Grant really didn't think "nursing with supplementation" covered what my 3 year old and 21 month old were sucking down on-demand, daily. That gave me 40 points per day, that I was allowed to consume (a big banana, or slice of turkey bacon, or girl scout cookie, would be 2 points, for reference).

I realized very quickly when I started calculating, that I have been in the habit of consuming over a HUNDRED points per day. And I am admitting on the internet to Anonymous and everyone that my binge eating plays into my intermittent blockage in a big, scary way and my ER trip for the pain was a humiliating turning point.

So. My first month on WW I was allowed 40 points per day, plus 35 weekly flex points to be used at any time throughout the week (but not rolled over). And I cheated a little somewhat frequently. I stayed between 222 and 224 the whole time, which I guess is technically a noticeable improvement. 222-224 for a month after a year of 223-229. Still REEEALLY frustrating when you've more than halved the amount you eat each day, and keep waiting a whole week to weigh in again, just to see the same damned thing. I've been way more active than usual lately, too, to the point that some suggested I could be accumulating muscle (from canoeing for hours, bike riding semi-regularly, more walks, snorkeling for almost an hour, etc)

All of this is totally disgusting to me. Before Elise, I had never even reached 220 when PREGNANT. I was actually 217 the day each of my first 4 children were born, oddly enough. And my jutting, herniated diastasis totally ruins my proportions.

Anyway...I made a decision based on their ages, my energy and time constraints, when my next surgery will be, etc, to scale way back on nursing. Jake is having milk about every other morning at this point, only. Elise is basically nursing when she first wakes up, before her afternoon nap, and before bed, only. Nursing sessions are not exceeding 10 minutes. He is none the worse for wear; she is a little clingier. I changed my ww status to "nursing with supplementation". I also "got real" about how much time I spend driving the van, folding laundry on the tv room floor, sitting on the computer, reading someone a book on the couch, etc, and changed my activity level from "mostly standing" to "mostly sitting". Especially seeings how you can count everything from cleaning to shopping towards more activity points, this is really fair.

My points allowance went from 40, to 33 per day, based on those two changes. I still get the 35 weekly flex points (everyone does) and still earn activity points for activity. I don't think I could have handled it when I first started WW and 40 was so constricting...but after over a month in, it's doable. I just have to think about things. A handful of raw mushrooms or some baby carrots are totally free. Or like if I make roasted cauliflower, steamed broccoli and sliced tomatoes with dinner, those are all free (although the olive oil and smart balance involved add a menial couple of points). And I love all that sort of stuff. I mean, a tall frappuccino with whipped cream and everything is only 7, which I can totally plan ahead for and work in without even dipping into flex points.

So this is my first week "doing it right", I guess, with the lowered point number and really staying within my point allowance. This is only day 4 of the first week of that. But I got on the scale this morning. I'm not "supposed" to get on the scale unless it's my scheduled weigh-in day (monday) but I did, because I am a masochist? Because I like feeling hopelessly frustrated and like even if my life is on the line I will still just eat myself literally to death?

It said 219. TWO NINETEEN.

I never thought I'd be psyched about 219. But wtf, I haven't been under 220 in a year and a half or more.

It just gives me a lot of new motivation and ease for sticking with it. Like, geez, if that is what 4 days on the plan can do, let's bring on some whole months and see what happens.




Everyone around here is growing so quickly. Isaac is FIVE. I found a picture of all of them together by the tree at Opa's house, the other day, and while Isaac and Jake look almost the same, Elise is a COMPLETELY different little girl, now, and Aaron is very noticeably different, too.

Our chicks already have real feathers on their wings! Instead of just fluff. And Isaac's seeds have turned into real seedlings of several inches, in under a week. A and A and I were just talking in their room about how Hoppy and Shadow (rabbits) were fluffly little round babies and how weird that seems now.

Time, I tell you what.
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Also, Ananda now has an LJ. Her comments get emailed to me, and I helped her set up the colors and find an icon she liked. I also tell her how to spell things as requested. But she's coming up with all her own text and doing all of the typing herself. So far she only has userinfo, but she's insanely proud of it (as she should be, she worked on it for an hour or so earlier). [livejournal.com profile] daisyscout
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I think that that rule about not eating after 6 for healthy weight is for people who go to bed at 9 or 10. Right? I go to bed at 3 or 4. So I shouldn't eat after midnight? I mean I'm pregnant and hypoglycemic and don't generally feel very well if I go more than like 2 hours without at least a snack, and in the third trimester it's normal for me to have a small snack with lots of protein right before bed, so that I'm not miserable when I get up in the morning/don't get sick from the iron I take right before going to sleep. But I'm not talking about that - I'm talking about how I made a stir fry of chicken, brocoli, red peppers, squash, zuccini, mushrooms, spinach, tomatoes and corn over brown rice, with terriyaki at 11 pm for Grant and I to stuff ourselves with as if we were hobbits who need second dinner. Is there anyone else on my friends page who finds themselves cooking up a big meal to tide them over for the long haul that comes AFTER the kids are in bed? o_O

Speaking of kids and bed, tonight Ananda again brought me her bible as one of her book choices (along with Curious George and Sometimes I Like to Curl up in a Ball), and we continued our way through Luke, starting with John the Baptist. I have to stop often to explain concepts and metaphors, even though it is a kids' bible and she is pretty sharp. When I tried to explain to her what it means for us to bear fruit, she finally acted like she got it, and said "Oh, it's not REAL fruit, it's doing good stuff and not sinning and helping people and loving everybody. It's AIR FRUIT, that you can't see because it's invisible." And also she said she interrupted me to say she really wants to get baptized when she's older, but she'll have to bring a change of clothes :p It makes me happy that she has such enthusiasm for this on her own. My constant prayer is "Please, Lord, speak with my mouth, touch with my hands".

Random:
-One of my favorite things is to send the kids out to the garden to pick fresh herbs while I'm cooking our dinner. It makes me really happy and they love it. If it was not for Grant Sr, I would TOTALLY have a couple of chickens in the backyard for fresh eggs, and they'd be collecting those as well. He's not even willing to consider that, though, I think it's a class thing.
-Our living situation has become temporary. Apparently there is a promotion for Grant Sr opening up next summer (he works for the DEA) that will be in either Georgia or Colorado. This is on our minds a lot. Aside from the very slim possibility that we would be able to take on all the bills here ourselves by then (which I would really love), we've talked about things like moving to some of the land Grant's mother's family owns, like building or renting a little place on it, in Lake City (northernmost Florida) or even getting an RV or some such craziness. The bottom line is we really have no plan at all. Liqwid Tech is doing better than ever, but it's slow starting as he's kind of rebuilding it (new name, new site, new cards and shirts, lots of new customers who haven't paid yet). I think I could actually supplement our income with this yarn business and possibly freelance writing stuff as well. He's looking at a part time IT position with another business similar to his, to supplement, and thinking of starting up with airsoft gun selling on the weekends again. I'm really ambivalent about that, but understand where he's coming from. What would be amazingly sweet is if he could get a couple more clients who offer ongoing, continuous income (from site maintenance contracts and hosting bills) and Schnebly started doing big business (he gets 15% of websales, and they have huge sales projections, but it's still very new).

S'all for now.

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