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This week I'm starting a four pronged approach to getting my health and body where I want them to be. They have been in a pretty bad state for a really long time, and in many ways this is the last big area I have to tackle on a long list of things I've been working my way through since New Years 2011.
1. I went to the doctor Monday, and explained my increasingly debilitating fatigue, drowsiness following eating, and other weird feelings (along with getting my annual pap/IUD check/breast exam, and so forth). I've got a prescription for the lab to test for anemia, diabetes and thyroid function, and should be headed over for that on Friday.
2. I had my second session with a Cognitive Behavioral Therapist. She's an LCSW who is going to do emdr with me, as well, for various things, but we are also tackling this eating/weight/hernia shit head on (rather than me continuing to ignore it, alone). The next two steps are part of a plan she suggested.
3. I'm joining a local Overeaters Anonymous group (first meeting tomorrow evening).
4. I'm joining Weight Watchers online, in the morning.
I've done WW before, but I've never had any accountability about it. I tried a WW meeting once and didn't like it, was skeptical of the cost, and they seemed to be on the verge of shutting down. The thought process here is that I'll have WW when I'm not at counseling or an OA meeting, and I'll have counseling and an OA meeting to hold me to the WW. According to my counselor, who I think I will call Ms P, OA's deal is that you do not eat white flour or refined sugar because those things so often lead directly to overeating and constant snacking of all sorts, basically scrambling your body's normal hunger/satisfaction signals - and that each individual coming is responsible for coming up with their own program (in my case WW).
I've never done Cognitive Behavioral Therapy before - meaning therapy based on changing current damaging thoughts and behaviors by figuring out what usually triggers them in your day to day life, and then implementing new strategies and coping mechanisms for when those situations arise. Action-based therapy is one way I've been thinking of it, rather than "just" talking a lot (often about the past). The emdr is for all the talking about the past! ;)
I do find this quote from tumblr to be true for me. It's annoying and frustrating that it is - I don't know how to explain just how fucking tired the concept of "my childhood" is, to me. And yet. Truth:
You can accept or reject the way you are treated by other people, but until you heal the wounds of your past, you will continue to bleed. You can bandage the bleeding with food, with alcohol, with drugs, with work, with cigarettes, with sex, but eventually, it will all ooze through and stain your life. You must find the strength to open the wounds, stick your hands inside, pull out the core of the pain that is holding you in your past, the memories, and make peace with them.
-Iyanla Vanzant , Yesterday I Cried.
1. I went to the doctor Monday, and explained my increasingly debilitating fatigue, drowsiness following eating, and other weird feelings (along with getting my annual pap/IUD check/breast exam, and so forth). I've got a prescription for the lab to test for anemia, diabetes and thyroid function, and should be headed over for that on Friday.
2. I had my second session with a Cognitive Behavioral Therapist. She's an LCSW who is going to do emdr with me, as well, for various things, but we are also tackling this eating/weight/hernia shit head on (rather than me continuing to ignore it, alone). The next two steps are part of a plan she suggested.
3. I'm joining a local Overeaters Anonymous group (first meeting tomorrow evening).
4. I'm joining Weight Watchers online, in the morning.
I've done WW before, but I've never had any accountability about it. I tried a WW meeting once and didn't like it, was skeptical of the cost, and they seemed to be on the verge of shutting down. The thought process here is that I'll have WW when I'm not at counseling or an OA meeting, and I'll have counseling and an OA meeting to hold me to the WW. According to my counselor, who I think I will call Ms P, OA's deal is that you do not eat white flour or refined sugar because those things so often lead directly to overeating and constant snacking of all sorts, basically scrambling your body's normal hunger/satisfaction signals - and that each individual coming is responsible for coming up with their own program (in my case WW).
I've never done Cognitive Behavioral Therapy before - meaning therapy based on changing current damaging thoughts and behaviors by figuring out what usually triggers them in your day to day life, and then implementing new strategies and coping mechanisms for when those situations arise. Action-based therapy is one way I've been thinking of it, rather than "just" talking a lot (often about the past). The emdr is for all the talking about the past! ;)
I do find this quote from tumblr to be true for me. It's annoying and frustrating that it is - I don't know how to explain just how fucking tired the concept of "my childhood" is, to me. And yet. Truth:
You can accept or reject the way you are treated by other people, but until you heal the wounds of your past, you will continue to bleed. You can bandage the bleeding with food, with alcohol, with drugs, with work, with cigarettes, with sex, but eventually, it will all ooze through and stain your life. You must find the strength to open the wounds, stick your hands inside, pull out the core of the pain that is holding you in your past, the memories, and make peace with them.
-Iyanla Vanzant , Yesterday I Cried.
