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altarflameI think it's pretty normal and acceptable and, you know, the state of things, that people need to take days to just do nothing, sometimes. Some people more often than others.
I have so much to do all the time, though, that when I have those days - particularly a couple of them in a row - it tends to mean I'm really blatantly neglecting important shit in a way that's kinda not ok.
Today, for instance, is my last day to study for two exams I have tomorrow. It's also several days past the point I told Ananda her 3/4-done quilt top would be done, and a week past my personal goal date for having Elizabeth's book written (I also have an illustrator response from an artist I solicited, about that! And updates from my artist-friend about the illustrations for childrens book #1, neither of which I've replied to!). And I keep saying I'm going to start exercising, and I'm supposed to go buy a new SunPass for the van from somewhere. Some low priority school stuff for the kids is rattling around at the bottom of the list, too.
But my mom has finally left town after a weekend of semi-tense visiting that involved a lot of time with all 7 of us over at my sister's, and this is the first week in over a month that has NOT involved daily highway driving, AND my house is cleaner than usual as a whole following some troop-rallying days.
So I got up, and got Isaac, Jake and Elise up, and packed their lunches and fed them breakfast and helped them find their shoes, and went and dropped them off at music camp. I came home in the rain and sent an email and made this text and photo post on tumblr about our house while I waited for a phone call back, because there'd been a mix-up with their forms.
Then the call happened, and I went to bed and slept until 2:30 (they get out at 3). My general impression is that Ananda and Aaron got up around noon and putzed around as they are wont to do. I told Annie that she has to do something productive.
I spent about half an hour talking with the littles about their day at camp, and showing them pictures of the place they'll be taking a field trip to. Then I cooked some food Aaron and Jake ate with me and everyone else thought was gross (because it was, in a good way. Diner hash, basically).
Somehow, I've now been on the computer scrolling for like 2 hours since then, and I'm not really sure how I'm supposed to make dinner when I need another nap. Gaaaaaaaaaah. I have to be out of the house all DAY tomorrow and grumble grumble caffeine drip snooooooooore.
I have so much to do all the time, though, that when I have those days - particularly a couple of them in a row - it tends to mean I'm really blatantly neglecting important shit in a way that's kinda not ok.
Today, for instance, is my last day to study for two exams I have tomorrow. It's also several days past the point I told Ananda her 3/4-done quilt top would be done, and a week past my personal goal date for having Elizabeth's book written (I also have an illustrator response from an artist I solicited, about that! And updates from my artist-friend about the illustrations for childrens book #1, neither of which I've replied to!). And I keep saying I'm going to start exercising, and I'm supposed to go buy a new SunPass for the van from somewhere. Some low priority school stuff for the kids is rattling around at the bottom of the list, too.
But my mom has finally left town after a weekend of semi-tense visiting that involved a lot of time with all 7 of us over at my sister's, and this is the first week in over a month that has NOT involved daily highway driving, AND my house is cleaner than usual as a whole following some troop-rallying days.
So I got up, and got Isaac, Jake and Elise up, and packed their lunches and fed them breakfast and helped them find their shoes, and went and dropped them off at music camp. I came home in the rain and sent an email and made this text and photo post on tumblr about our house while I waited for a phone call back, because there'd been a mix-up with their forms.
Then the call happened, and I went to bed and slept until 2:30 (they get out at 3). My general impression is that Ananda and Aaron got up around noon and putzed around as they are wont to do. I told Annie that she has to do something productive.
I spent about half an hour talking with the littles about their day at camp, and showing them pictures of the place they'll be taking a field trip to. Then I cooked some food Aaron and Jake ate with me and everyone else thought was gross (because it was, in a good way. Diner hash, basically).
Somehow, I've now been on the computer scrolling for like 2 hours since then, and I'm not really sure how I'm supposed to make dinner when I need another nap. Gaaaaaaaaaah. I have to be out of the house all DAY tomorrow and grumble grumble caffeine drip snooooooooore.
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Date: 2013-07-19 12:53 pm (UTC)Though, it also comes to mind that you'd mentioned in an earlier post doing some heavy discussion with your Therapist centered around your mom, so you could be dealing with some distancing given her part in what you've identified is going on for you over the last years. It's so hard when you have recognized issues and triggers, because then (for me) you're always left wondering "is this just a thing like everyone else goes through or is it related to "SOMETHING", ya know?
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Date: 2013-07-20 06:59 am (UTC)I know what you mean, and my mom definitely had something to do with how I was left feeling Monday morning. It is what it is!