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altarflameETA: I fixed the html so the entry actually appears under the cut now. Sorry about that.
I’m feeling a little bit like I live in a pressure cooker.
My Isaac schedule alone, for the week, is like this:
-Monday: ped appt to find out about his intermittent sniffy breathing (all in his head according to doc)
-Tuesday: just me at a morning meeting developmental interview with psychologist who is doing his psych eval
-Wednesday: Grant stops the way home from work in the evening to meet with regular counselor for the first time
-Thursday: normal Isaac and counselor counseling session
-Friday: all DAY with a lunch psych eval with psychologist
Keeping in mind that the psych and counselor are all at least 30 minutes from my house and that these rides are in addition to our normal driving. I can’t really complain when we are able to get all of this for him for FREE at the places and when they are all awesome people I like - the evaluation alone is usually $1500.
We’re also getting ready to embark on a serious mission to get to the bottom of his gut issues.
I went in my room last night for while, while Grant was home, and just cried for a bit. My head was doing something like, “I can’t believe I didn’t know we were out of rice when I started cooking I can’t believe I did all that dinner prep this morning and still can’t just cook when we get home it’s so late already this commute is impossible there are 500 million dishes damnit I missed a class deadline yesterday maybe I can email the professor fuck all where is a clean preschool tshirt for Elise to wear tomorrow shit why is Aaron’s bird making all that noise again when am I supposed to study for algebra I can’t find my phone charger I still need to make that post for Nana and Pa how am I getting them to music classes tomorrow afternoon if Grant needs the van where is this gas money coming from before”.
I feel better after I just take the time to decompress and go cry. I also cut myself some slack from my standard read-a-whole-lot-to-every-single-kid routine and just let everyone fall asleep in the tv room with a movie while I collapsed into bed at a decent hour.
Two good things:
-a month or two ago I responded to a freecycle ad for boxes of books. The person giving them away turned out to be surprisingly cool who and a writer herself – a food column for the New Times and books published by a small press, in addition to some other stuff. Someone actually supporting themself solely with writing! We friended each other on facebook. Since then, she and a few other people are forming a subsidiary agency under the umbrella of her publishers, and they’ve been soliciting submissions with promises of bigger than normal royalty cuts, high quality editing, good cover designs, formatting for kindle and nook and heavy promotion via social networking. She’s got my short stories right now and is supposed to be reading them
-This weekend Kristin and I are taking our collective children and some food via metrorail to see Rachel Goodrich play (FREE!) at Bayfront Park :)
I'm up and down.
-my sister's seeming so close to having her baby
-Nancy is in town and we're going to visit today
-still eating vegan, excercising more - still at (at least) 6.5 pounds lost.
-A small press publisher wants my short stories and is putting together an offer for me.
-I sat around working on my IEP and I'll have my AA by the end of the year.
-Isaac LOVED his evaluation, continues to love counseling and having his own room too...
-In place of my normal PMS I had a crazy intense PMDD type 3 day misery-fest. After research I think this could be because I've been vegan and not supplementing correctly, because B6 is being used for treatment of PMDD and my symptoms went away almost immediately when I started taking lots of B vitamins. I guess it may have just been B12 deficiency misery? In general I've felt much better than usual these past 3+ weeks. It was very, very bad those 3 days, though, I truly felt mentally ill and a bit out of control :/
-a million other things. I'll do a real update soon.
I really really love Spandy Andy and have had this absolute bullshit song by VAMPIRE WEEKEND called "Oxford Comma" caught in my head all week.
I am desperately sick of being in our van and my favorite times are the ones spent in my bed snuggling with one or more of these lovely people I share a home with.
I’m feeling a little bit like I live in a pressure cooker.
My Isaac schedule alone, for the week, is like this:
-Monday: ped appt to find out about his intermittent sniffy breathing (all in his head according to doc)
-Tuesday: just me at a morning meeting developmental interview with psychologist who is doing his psych eval
-Wednesday: Grant stops the way home from work in the evening to meet with regular counselor for the first time
-Thursday: normal Isaac and counselor counseling session
-Friday: all DAY with a lunch psych eval with psychologist
Keeping in mind that the psych and counselor are all at least 30 minutes from my house and that these rides are in addition to our normal driving. I can’t really complain when we are able to get all of this for him for FREE at the places and when they are all awesome people I like - the evaluation alone is usually $1500.
We’re also getting ready to embark on a serious mission to get to the bottom of his gut issues.
I went in my room last night for while, while Grant was home, and just cried for a bit. My head was doing something like, “I can’t believe I didn’t know we were out of rice when I started cooking I can’t believe I did all that dinner prep this morning and still can’t just cook when we get home it’s so late already this commute is impossible there are 500 million dishes damnit I missed a class deadline yesterday maybe I can email the professor fuck all where is a clean preschool tshirt for Elise to wear tomorrow shit why is Aaron’s bird making all that noise again when am I supposed to study for algebra I can’t find my phone charger I still need to make that post for Nana and Pa how am I getting them to music classes tomorrow afternoon if Grant needs the van where is this gas money coming from before”.
I feel better after I just take the time to decompress and go cry. I also cut myself some slack from my standard read-a-whole-lot-to-every-single-kid routine and just let everyone fall asleep in the tv room with a movie while I collapsed into bed at a decent hour.
Two good things:
-a month or two ago I responded to a freecycle ad for boxes of books. The person giving them away turned out to be surprisingly cool who and a writer herself – a food column for the New Times and books published by a small press, in addition to some other stuff. Someone actually supporting themself solely with writing! We friended each other on facebook. Since then, she and a few other people are forming a subsidiary agency under the umbrella of her publishers, and they’ve been soliciting submissions with promises of bigger than normal royalty cuts, high quality editing, good cover designs, formatting for kindle and nook and heavy promotion via social networking. She’s got my short stories right now and is supposed to be reading them
-This weekend Kristin and I are taking our collective children and some food via metrorail to see Rachel Goodrich play (FREE!) at Bayfront Park :)
I'm up and down.
-my sister's seeming so close to having her baby
-Nancy is in town and we're going to visit today
-still eating vegan, excercising more - still at (at least) 6.5 pounds lost.
-A small press publisher wants my short stories and is putting together an offer for me.
-I sat around working on my IEP and I'll have my AA by the end of the year.
-Isaac LOVED his evaluation, continues to love counseling and having his own room too...
-In place of my normal PMS I had a crazy intense PMDD type 3 day misery-fest. After research I think this could be because I've been vegan and not supplementing correctly, because B6 is being used for treatment of PMDD and my symptoms went away almost immediately when I started taking lots of B vitamins. I guess it may have just been B12 deficiency misery? In general I've felt much better than usual these past 3+ weeks. It was very, very bad those 3 days, though, I truly felt mentally ill and a bit out of control :/
-a million other things. I'll do a real update soon.
I really really love Spandy Andy and have had this absolute bullshit song by VAMPIRE WEEKEND called "Oxford Comma" caught in my head all week.
I am desperately sick of being in our van and my favorite times are the ones spent in my bed snuggling with one or more of these lovely people I share a home with.
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Date: 2012-02-19 01:14 am (UTC)If you want, at some point when I'm on my own computer, I could send you the updates you never saw.
ETA: I just realized my old entry wasn't appearing below the cut, fixed that.
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Date: 2012-02-18 09:18 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-02-19 01:14 am (UTC)I love nutritional yeast <3
ETA: I realized that my cut was broken and not showing the old entry and just fixed that.
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Date: 2012-02-18 11:34 pm (UTC)WOW, PUBLICATION! Well done :D I look forward to hearing more about this! Congratulations!
Sending good birthing vibes to your sister. That last bit of waiting is so hard.
Hope you can balance out the B vitamins soon. It's horrendous when you feel so unbalanced.
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Date: 2012-02-19 01:15 am (UTC)I also look forward to hearing more about this ;) I'm rather compulsively checking my email this weekend...
ETA: I realized my cut just had a bizarre half sentence hanging there and fixed it so you can see the old entry it's supposed to have, now.