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altarflameI have no energy.
All I want to do is sleep.
Which is actually the one thing I can't do. Because there is all this other crap to be done.
I have a headcold and my last period that is just ended was one of the really epic semi-annual ones that has me contemplating hospitalization and I keep having to do things like stay up til 3 doing homework and then wake up at 5:30 to drive Grant to work.
I keep irritating real life people, who don't understand why I'm not responding to their facebook messages, text messages and phone calls. THIS IS WHY. I'm super busy, and if I have time when I am not busy, I am going to turn the ringer off and take a nap.
Unfortunately none of the people I'm referencing read my lj (at least not regularly).
-Elise is still loving preschool and doing well, her teacher sat me down for a big talk about their first set of assessments and basically said "She's a super genius". She's also freaking insane, and driving me crazy with her (admittedly adorable) attitude problem(s). I didn't really understand what a huge pita it was going to be to have to get her to school at 9 and pick her up at noon, everyday. It's worth it, though.
-Jake turned 6 yesterday :) He had a great day, dinner out alone with Mom and Dad, a cake with candles and singing, a stop by Opa's house to get some presents. His party is Saturday and he's counting down. Most of the walkways of my house are taken up by unrolled paper held down at the corners by books that my other children are turning into wrapping paper for him, with paint. A lot of the rest of the tile has cat pawprints all over it.
-Isaac has no idea what "appropriate clothing" means. I have to police what he wears all the time or he goes out in, say, pants with no button that are falling off his hips and a shirt with a stretched out neck hanging off one shoulder that doesn't cover his belly. That was yesterday's ensemble. I don't know where he finds this stuff. He will also fight with me to keep wearing one of the three Mario shirts in the house without a washing break, even when it's caked with three meals' worth of food and dirt from outside. I should have known when he picked out the technicolor vest in Boston when my mom took him shopping....or when he lived in pink monkey pajama pants for most of his 5th year...
-Aaron is living at Cybele's for a couple of days. Cybele is living at a hotel currently. They put out breakfast and dinner daily for free at this hotel, and her son has clothes in his size. She told me, "The hotel will feed him, Adrian will clothe him and I'll drive him places. Beyond that I can't make any promises". Sounds good to me. We all have a vague anxiousness because of their tight foursome "the ninja dolphins", Ananda and Logan are the mediators that say things like, "uh, guys, you really shouldn't light that on fire". Aaron and Adrian are the instigators and wild idea guys, both with a little too much "scientific curiosity" (ALL of my cornstarch is gone AGAIN?!). We'll see.
-Ananda is learning geometry. Also whoa, I read this story she (independently, not assigned) wrote. Is writing. Geez man is it AMAZING! And a portrait of dyslexia. Vocabulary, phrasing, ideas, plot - WOW. Dialogue, setting, just...WOW!! I am really blown away. But it's written in, like, 1st grade phonetic spelling with random spacing not necessarily relevant to where the words are in the many pages of letters O_o It's more an excercise in "decoding" than "reading" though it is worth decoding, and I can do it. Her, Adrian and Sophia have formed a team and are downloading the software to participate in the local (and potentially other) Future City competition(s). Almost everyday I'm communicating with her art therapist about when we resume, or the GMYS guy about when her cello classes start, or her GS Troop leader about what month they're gonna begin in. Lots of dumb waiting around for people to regroup.
-College is catching up with me - all the procrastinating I've done this semester is biting me in the ass at once. I think I can still get an A in literature and religion fairly easily, though with a lot of cramming for the latter, but I am starting to get concerned about Speech because the teacher is an asshole, and Algebra because I suck at it and was a damn fool to elect to take math online. I'm contemplating at what point I'd like to take some time off....I got an email today about how Spring enrollment starts on the 20th. If I stay full time through Spring and part time in Summer, I'll have my AA. Since I'm looking at an advanced degree, I think I kind of have to wait until after the AA to take a break. Grant and I have been talking about using next Fall to get surgery. Happy happy joy joy and all that. Part of me is concerned about waiting that long, but another part REALLY doesn't want to deal with academic probation again and knows I have everything in place already with my financial aid and all, for Spring. Definitely easiest to take a break before a transfer.
-Not writing more is KILLING ME. I've got all this really helpful comprehensive editing done by multiple people on my short stories, and I'm not doing anything with it right now :/ I've also got some badass sketches for my children's book and a whole concept for layout and illustrations, and an artist who is flaking out with personal problems. I'm trying to just breathe, with both projects, and know that I have really come a long way with them since the first of the year when I made so many resolutions.
-I have to take a 12 hour class online and apply for a temporary hardship license because I got so many speeding tickets last year. Awesome, I know. Also negotiating cheap minimal body work on the van necessary to put in a new headlight assembly so that we can, you know, drive at night legally again. And my bicycle, which I rely on a LOT lately, is needing things more and more. I hate maintenance. The plants want me to water them, the deck needs to be resealed, the toilets are gross again, blah blah blah. Don't these objects know I have children?
-I am really happy about upcoming holidays.
-I apparently love sangria after a shared pitcher the other night, and really want to make one something like this for our next party - http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/sangria-sangria/detail.aspx It's good to know it's getting cool enough that we can have indoor/outdoor bonfire-featuring parties again :) Grant already bought enormous marshmallows.
-I gave myself a very good (trim) haircut the other afternoon in between trips to the learning support lab, and I love how my hair is acting ever since, but damnitt, I want it LONG and don't understand why it won't grow faster and need less trimming.
I just realized I could be sleeping right now.
All I want to do is sleep.
Which is actually the one thing I can't do. Because there is all this other crap to be done.
I have a headcold and my last period that is just ended was one of the really epic semi-annual ones that has me contemplating hospitalization and I keep having to do things like stay up til 3 doing homework and then wake up at 5:30 to drive Grant to work.
I keep irritating real life people, who don't understand why I'm not responding to their facebook messages, text messages and phone calls. THIS IS WHY. I'm super busy, and if I have time when I am not busy, I am going to turn the ringer off and take a nap.
Unfortunately none of the people I'm referencing read my lj (at least not regularly).
-Elise is still loving preschool and doing well, her teacher sat me down for a big talk about their first set of assessments and basically said "She's a super genius". She's also freaking insane, and driving me crazy with her (admittedly adorable) attitude problem(s). I didn't really understand what a huge pita it was going to be to have to get her to school at 9 and pick her up at noon, everyday. It's worth it, though.
-Jake turned 6 yesterday :) He had a great day, dinner out alone with Mom and Dad, a cake with candles and singing, a stop by Opa's house to get some presents. His party is Saturday and he's counting down. Most of the walkways of my house are taken up by unrolled paper held down at the corners by books that my other children are turning into wrapping paper for him, with paint. A lot of the rest of the tile has cat pawprints all over it.
-Isaac has no idea what "appropriate clothing" means. I have to police what he wears all the time or he goes out in, say, pants with no button that are falling off his hips and a shirt with a stretched out neck hanging off one shoulder that doesn't cover his belly. That was yesterday's ensemble. I don't know where he finds this stuff. He will also fight with me to keep wearing one of the three Mario shirts in the house without a washing break, even when it's caked with three meals' worth of food and dirt from outside. I should have known when he picked out the technicolor vest in Boston when my mom took him shopping....or when he lived in pink monkey pajama pants for most of his 5th year...
-Aaron is living at Cybele's for a couple of days. Cybele is living at a hotel currently. They put out breakfast and dinner daily for free at this hotel, and her son has clothes in his size. She told me, "The hotel will feed him, Adrian will clothe him and I'll drive him places. Beyond that I can't make any promises". Sounds good to me. We all have a vague anxiousness because of their tight foursome "the ninja dolphins", Ananda and Logan are the mediators that say things like, "uh, guys, you really shouldn't light that on fire". Aaron and Adrian are the instigators and wild idea guys, both with a little too much "scientific curiosity" (ALL of my cornstarch is gone AGAIN?!). We'll see.
-Ananda is learning geometry. Also whoa, I read this story she (independently, not assigned) wrote. Is writing. Geez man is it AMAZING! And a portrait of dyslexia. Vocabulary, phrasing, ideas, plot - WOW. Dialogue, setting, just...WOW!! I am really blown away. But it's written in, like, 1st grade phonetic spelling with random spacing not necessarily relevant to where the words are in the many pages of letters O_o It's more an excercise in "decoding" than "reading" though it is worth decoding, and I can do it. Her, Adrian and Sophia have formed a team and are downloading the software to participate in the local (and potentially other) Future City competition(s). Almost everyday I'm communicating with her art therapist about when we resume, or the GMYS guy about when her cello classes start, or her GS Troop leader about what month they're gonna begin in. Lots of dumb waiting around for people to regroup.
-College is catching up with me - all the procrastinating I've done this semester is biting me in the ass at once. I think I can still get an A in literature and religion fairly easily, though with a lot of cramming for the latter, but I am starting to get concerned about Speech because the teacher is an asshole, and Algebra because I suck at it and was a damn fool to elect to take math online. I'm contemplating at what point I'd like to take some time off....I got an email today about how Spring enrollment starts on the 20th. If I stay full time through Spring and part time in Summer, I'll have my AA. Since I'm looking at an advanced degree, I think I kind of have to wait until after the AA to take a break. Grant and I have been talking about using next Fall to get surgery. Happy happy joy joy and all that. Part of me is concerned about waiting that long, but another part REALLY doesn't want to deal with academic probation again and knows I have everything in place already with my financial aid and all, for Spring. Definitely easiest to take a break before a transfer.
-Not writing more is KILLING ME. I've got all this really helpful comprehensive editing done by multiple people on my short stories, and I'm not doing anything with it right now :/ I've also got some badass sketches for my children's book and a whole concept for layout and illustrations, and an artist who is flaking out with personal problems. I'm trying to just breathe, with both projects, and know that I have really come a long way with them since the first of the year when I made so many resolutions.
-I have to take a 12 hour class online and apply for a temporary hardship license because I got so many speeding tickets last year. Awesome, I know. Also negotiating cheap minimal body work on the van necessary to put in a new headlight assembly so that we can, you know, drive at night legally again. And my bicycle, which I rely on a LOT lately, is needing things more and more. I hate maintenance. The plants want me to water them, the deck needs to be resealed, the toilets are gross again, blah blah blah. Don't these objects know I have children?
-I am really happy about upcoming holidays.
-I apparently love sangria after a shared pitcher the other night, and really want to make one something like this for our next party - http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/sangria-sangria/detail.aspx It's good to know it's getting cool enough that we can have indoor/outdoor bonfire-featuring parties again :) Grant already bought enormous marshmallows.
-I gave myself a very good (trim) haircut the other afternoon in between trips to the learning support lab, and I love how my hair is acting ever since, but damnitt, I want it LONG and don't understand why it won't grow faster and need less trimming.
I just realized I could be sleeping right now.
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Date: 2011-10-16 03:02 am (UTC)