altarflame | (no subject)

I really savor my nights alone, lately.

All day long I...

teach
remind
nag
encourage
answer
help
serve
retrieve
cook
clean
anticipate
shush
play with
soothe

and sometimes it's really like I'm juggling, for hours. It's a good juggling, both because I can step outside of it mentally and go, "Wow, I'm really keeping all these balls in the air!" and also because there are just major payoffs.

Then there comes this point when I can read uninterrupted.
Eat uninterrupted.
Browse the internet uninterrupted.
Go to the bathroom, take a bath, talk on the phone, chat on facebook, think...uninterrupted.

It's pretty sweet.

Tonight on the menu was scallops I baked with seasoned salt and lemon juice, along with black beans topped with fresh tomato and avocado, and salt - and fanfiction. And Dama. Next on the agenda, bubble bath.

This is why it's worth it to me to just not sleep, even though I have to be up at 9 to wake A and A and have them pack and bake muffins for breakfast, and drive them to a sleepover that begins with a baseball game, and I promised Jake we'd do something just the two of us, and the ferret cage has to be cleaned out and my bedroom has to get cleaned and I have laundry to do when I'm not reading the littles Oz or helping Isaac with phonics or taking them around the block for a walk with their bikes.