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I spent most of the day out yesterday with Laura and all the kids - went to my recently discovered Plaza of Wonder, where there is a bead store, a yarn store, a scrapbooking store, a baby furniture store, a hippie children's clothes store and a skate shop (seriously, !). Several of these stores also either have a big play area full of toys with a low picket fence, for kids to be in while moms shop, or super kid-friendly owners that want to babysit and make them laugh while you shop, so how cool is that. Laura had never been there. Then we went to Wild Oats, had lunch, and got my vitamins and chlorophyll. Came home and she joined us for pizza night. Shaun was here too, which made it downright crowded once G Sr and Robbie came home; but in a pleasant way.

We went in this maternity store while we were out and I found the BEST MATERNITY SHIRT EVER. It was a plain tshirt that said, "Birth Control is for Sissies". I mean seriously, can you imagine seeing me out in a few months, with all the kids at the Farmer's Market or Publix or whatever, big and pregnant and wearing that? It really, really cracks me up. Unfortunately it was $36 and I think that's insane for a tshirt, but I'll make my own with a printed out iron-on or through cafepress or something. Maybe I could embroider it. There are some on ebay but they aren't as cool.

Grant went out with Shaun after I'd taken Laura home, to this restaurant nearby where there was a band playing, and while he was gone the kids all acted like they were on crack and were obviously not going to all go to bed simultaneously with just one grownup running the show, so I corraled them in my room and we read prayers and quotes of Mother Teresa's together for a long time. It was really, really awesome. I think Ananda understood everything and Aaron most of it (we discussed all of it, of course) and it led to praying and talking about forgiving each other.

When we were finished I looked in the back of the book - it lists all the Missionaries of Charity houses(Mother Teresa's religious order, they "wholeheartedly serve the poorest of the poor") in the United States and Canada, with phone numbers. I glanced through them and then saw that they actually have one in Miami. I got goosebumps. I am extremely excited about the possibility of being able to visit them.

And of course this leads me down my familiar path of thinking - this time it was, "Remember how C.S. Lewis said that Jesus had to be real, logically, because you can't say someone is just very smart and wise and says many good things all people should live by...but they are also a raving lunatic who's delusional. That just doesn't make sense. Either he WAS the son of God, or he just didn't have his head screwed on straight, which obviously wasn't the case" (paraphrased). Well...isn't it kind of parallel, like, I say, "Everything Mother Teresa said rings true for me, her words and actions have moved me so much and made me feel closer to God in so many ways. The Lord moved mountains through her, it's truly miraculous the innumerable lives she touched and improved. But, she was really deluded to be a part of the Catholic church and obediant to them and I'm not sure if this whole 'her being a saint thing' gels with me." I mean, hello. She accomplished everything she did within their bounds and through their leadership and aid. Most of the prayers she prayed that were recorded and have touched me, are old Catholic prayers. That was the faith that inspired and nurtured her to go on to such great things - although she had a very simple personal faith that centered almost completely around the gospels; she was definitely not a Catholic theologian. And probably would have thought I was very silly, analyzing every single in and out of each and every denomination in it's historical context...rather than just having faith.

My sister is contemplating watching the kids for us tomorrow so Grant and I could go to Mass together. If not I'll go alone.

I felt SO CLOSE TO GOD last night, it was the first time in quite awhile that I had that full-in-the-chest feeling like I could say, "Well, Jesus..." and He would be right there listening. The song on the radio in the van, the places I was passing, my first alone time in days...I got home crying I was so grateful for everything I have and how much I've grown up. *sigh*


It's very hard for me to make myself work on dolls for orders, when all I want to knit and crochet are Jake's birthday presents. His birthday is 2 months away, and so far I'm making him longies (coolest wool EVER, it's thick and thin in a light blue, deep blue and purple gradient), and a sweater (dark teal-y, sport weight alpaca). I'm sure I see a hat in his future, too, though, and possibly some socks as well.

For now, though...for now it's all about FOLDING LAUNDRY. Possibly for hours, until Grant and Ananda get home from a birthday party and we can go to ArtSouth and see Alex's painting show.

Date: 2006-08-13 01:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] altarflame.livejournal.com
I'm having a homebirth this time, as I wish I had every other time.

You don't know how much we pay in taxes.

I've never been on welfare in my life.

Having kids is not a job, RAISING them is. Perhaps you think checking people out at the grocery store would be a more significant contribution, but I disagree.

I actually am grateful every day that we have the opportunity to live with Grant's dad, so that I can stay home. It would break my heart to not be able to.

Anyway, you have enough backstory to obviously be riveted. I think one very intelligent problem child out of four is pretty good. Maybe one day you'll get to deal with someone who is "high needs", and understand.

Cowardly ass anonymous commenting. Honestly, if you're so adamant about all this maybe you could *tell us who you are*.

Date: 2006-08-13 02:00 am (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
Just like you were going to have a "homebirth" with Jake? Aside, you didn't answer my question as to how much these "homebirths" cost.

I've got a pretty good idea how much you pay in taxes. I don't have to actually know it, you are only 24 and you probably have only paid enough in taxes to be on welfare or medicaid a week. Because you've been too busy popping out kids like a Disney ride.

Weren't you on aid with Annie? Don't you justify being on aid with her because she is so bright? Oh yes she has no problems. She is just absolutely painfully afraid of being around new people. She's not merely shy she is petrified. And yes Aaron has no problems at all right?

It would break your rhythm not to live with Grant's dad, that is all.

Sure it's only one child.

So if we don't agree with St. Tina Breeds A Lot we have to be named, that way you'll know who is being lynched? There is one thing between being an intelligent, problem child than a child who is just misbehaved because there are too many kids to give attention to.





Date: 2006-08-13 02:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] theneolistickid.livejournal.com
I am drafting a letter to Time Warner (aka RoadRunner.net)'s abuse department stating that we are being harrassed by a user with the IP address of 65.35.91.152 (located aproximately in Ormond Beach, FL) and that we would like the appropriate action to be taken.

If you would care to identify yourself (I doubt it, but I would still like to give you the chance) within the next 10 minutes, I will not send this letter that may or may not have your internet connection shut off, at least for an inconvenient amount of time.

Stop fucking around.

Date: 2006-08-13 02:46 am (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
Draft away. I have not slandered you nor am I making any threats. I am sure Time Warner will drop everything just to do your bidding. Go ahead and send the letter. It will show you what the location is of the server I am using but not where I am. But I have done nothing illegal. This is an open post and I made a comment. That is allowed. I would check that one if I were you. Tina allows comments on this thing. Therefore, what I am doing is allowed. It is an OPEN forum.

A few meetings with the Chamber of Commerce doesn't make you a big shot, Grant.


As stated above. I think the kids are fine but that you both suck as parents.

Since you don't like reality, I will leave you alone if you like. I understand that reality does disturb people sometimes.

Date: 2006-08-13 02:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] altarflame.livejournal.com
Oh, no, saying that people are on welfare (who aren't), are shitty parents (haha), etc etc - that's nothing like slander.

How can the kids be fine if we suck as parents?

Reality apparently is all perceptions, and we have very, very different perceptions.

I would think it was pretty damn obvious that we'd like you to leave us alone.

Date: 2006-08-13 02:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] altarflame.livejournal.com
I never, ever planned to have a homebirth with Jake. And as previously stated, homebirth costs $0.

If you can't see how awesome our kids are, even from the incomplete picture painted in this blog, that's your problem, not mine or theirs.

I can't wait to find out which relative it is that lives at this IP address...

Date: 2006-08-13 02:37 am (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
So when you had a C-section with Jake that was totally planned? Perhaps "homebirth" is the wrong term but you get my gist when I bring it up. You can't even have a natural birth what makes you think a "homebirth" is possible? So tell me, how much did those C-sections cost again? You still haven't answered that one.

I said your kids had problems not that they weren't great. I don't think the parents are all that great.

Yes, which one is it right?

Date: 2006-08-13 02:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] altarflame.livejournal.com
C-sections cost a lot of money. It is a huge shame for our society that so many women are rooked into them by selfish, male obstetricians and greedy systems. I wish I were not one of them.

If you did some research you would see that having a baby at home is way less likely to end in a cesarean, as evidenced by the lack of an OR in my living room.

Date: 2006-08-13 10:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] babyslime.livejournal.com
Um, friends list not stalker list. You're a regular Grade "A" Psycho.

On the plus side: Tina, you're now so e-famous you've attracted l33t anon hat3rz. w00t w00t.

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