Outings, projects and worship, oh my...
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altarflameI spent most of the day out yesterday with Laura and all the kids - went to my recently discovered Plaza of Wonder, where there is a bead store, a yarn store, a scrapbooking store, a baby furniture store, a hippie children's clothes store and a skate shop (seriously, !). Several of these stores also either have a big play area full of toys with a low picket fence, for kids to be in while moms shop, or super kid-friendly owners that want to babysit and make them laugh while you shop, so how cool is that. Laura had never been there. Then we went to Wild Oats, had lunch, and got my vitamins and chlorophyll. Came home and she joined us for pizza night. Shaun was here too, which made it downright crowded once G Sr and Robbie came home; but in a pleasant way.
We went in this maternity store while we were out and I found the BEST MATERNITY SHIRT EVER. It was a plain tshirt that said, "Birth Control is for Sissies". I mean seriously, can you imagine seeing me out in a few months, with all the kids at the Farmer's Market or Publix or whatever, big and pregnant and wearing that? It really, really cracks me up. Unfortunately it was $36 and I think that's insane for a tshirt, but I'll make my own with a printed out iron-on or through cafepress or something. Maybe I could embroider it. There are some on ebay but they aren't as cool.
Grant went out with Shaun after I'd taken Laura home, to this restaurant nearby where there was a band playing, and while he was gone the kids all acted like they were on crack and were obviously not going to all go to bed simultaneously with just one grownup running the show, so I corraled them in my room and we read prayers and quotes of Mother Teresa's together for a long time. It was really, really awesome. I think Ananda understood everything and Aaron most of it (we discussed all of it, of course) and it led to praying and talking about forgiving each other.
When we were finished I looked in the back of the book - it lists all the Missionaries of Charity houses(Mother Teresa's religious order, they "wholeheartedly serve the poorest of the poor") in the United States and Canada, with phone numbers. I glanced through them and then saw that they actually have one in Miami. I got goosebumps. I am extremely excited about the possibility of being able to visit them.
And of course this leads me down my familiar path of thinking - this time it was, "Remember how C.S. Lewis said that Jesus had to be real, logically, because you can't say someone is just very smart and wise and says many good things all people should live by...but they are also a raving lunatic who's delusional. That just doesn't make sense. Either he WAS the son of God, or he just didn't have his head screwed on straight, which obviously wasn't the case" (paraphrased). Well...isn't it kind of parallel, like, I say, "Everything Mother Teresa said rings true for me, her words and actions have moved me so much and made me feel closer to God in so many ways. The Lord moved mountains through her, it's truly miraculous the innumerable lives she touched and improved. But, she was really deluded to be a part of the Catholic church and obediant to them and I'm not sure if this whole 'her being a saint thing' gels with me." I mean, hello. She accomplished everything she did within their bounds and through their leadership and aid. Most of the prayers she prayed that were recorded and have touched me, are old Catholic prayers. That was the faith that inspired and nurtured her to go on to such great things - although she had a very simple personal faith that centered almost completely around the gospels; she was definitely not a Catholic theologian. And probably would have thought I was very silly, analyzing every single in and out of each and every denomination in it's historical context...rather than just having faith.
My sister is contemplating watching the kids for us tomorrow so Grant and I could go to Mass together. If not I'll go alone.
I felt SO CLOSE TO GOD last night, it was the first time in quite awhile that I had that full-in-the-chest feeling like I could say, "Well, Jesus..." and He would be right there listening. The song on the radio in the van, the places I was passing, my first alone time in days...I got home crying I was so grateful for everything I have and how much I've grown up. *sigh*
It's very hard for me to make myself work on dolls for orders, when all I want to knit and crochet are Jake's birthday presents. His birthday is 2 months away, and so far I'm making him longies (coolest wool EVER, it's thick and thin in a light blue, deep blue and purple gradient), and a sweater (dark teal-y, sport weight alpaca). I'm sure I see a hat in his future, too, though, and possibly some socks as well.
For now, though...for now it's all about FOLDING LAUNDRY. Possibly for hours, until Grant and Ananda get home from a birthday party and we can go to ArtSouth and see Alex's painting show.
We went in this maternity store while we were out and I found the BEST MATERNITY SHIRT EVER. It was a plain tshirt that said, "Birth Control is for Sissies". I mean seriously, can you imagine seeing me out in a few months, with all the kids at the Farmer's Market or Publix or whatever, big and pregnant and wearing that? It really, really cracks me up. Unfortunately it was $36 and I think that's insane for a tshirt, but I'll make my own with a printed out iron-on or through cafepress or something. Maybe I could embroider it. There are some on ebay but they aren't as cool.
Grant went out with Shaun after I'd taken Laura home, to this restaurant nearby where there was a band playing, and while he was gone the kids all acted like they were on crack and were obviously not going to all go to bed simultaneously with just one grownup running the show, so I corraled them in my room and we read prayers and quotes of Mother Teresa's together for a long time. It was really, really awesome. I think Ananda understood everything and Aaron most of it (we discussed all of it, of course) and it led to praying and talking about forgiving each other.
When we were finished I looked in the back of the book - it lists all the Missionaries of Charity houses(Mother Teresa's religious order, they "wholeheartedly serve the poorest of the poor") in the United States and Canada, with phone numbers. I glanced through them and then saw that they actually have one in Miami. I got goosebumps. I am extremely excited about the possibility of being able to visit them.
And of course this leads me down my familiar path of thinking - this time it was, "Remember how C.S. Lewis said that Jesus had to be real, logically, because you can't say someone is just very smart and wise and says many good things all people should live by...but they are also a raving lunatic who's delusional. That just doesn't make sense. Either he WAS the son of God, or he just didn't have his head screwed on straight, which obviously wasn't the case" (paraphrased). Well...isn't it kind of parallel, like, I say, "Everything Mother Teresa said rings true for me, her words and actions have moved me so much and made me feel closer to God in so many ways. The Lord moved mountains through her, it's truly miraculous the innumerable lives she touched and improved. But, she was really deluded to be a part of the Catholic church and obediant to them and I'm not sure if this whole 'her being a saint thing' gels with me." I mean, hello. She accomplished everything she did within their bounds and through their leadership and aid. Most of the prayers she prayed that were recorded and have touched me, are old Catholic prayers. That was the faith that inspired and nurtured her to go on to such great things - although she had a very simple personal faith that centered almost completely around the gospels; she was definitely not a Catholic theologian. And probably would have thought I was very silly, analyzing every single in and out of each and every denomination in it's historical context...rather than just having faith.
My sister is contemplating watching the kids for us tomorrow so Grant and I could go to Mass together. If not I'll go alone.
I felt SO CLOSE TO GOD last night, it was the first time in quite awhile that I had that full-in-the-chest feeling like I could say, "Well, Jesus..." and He would be right there listening. The song on the radio in the van, the places I was passing, my first alone time in days...I got home crying I was so grateful for everything I have and how much I've grown up. *sigh*
It's very hard for me to make myself work on dolls for orders, when all I want to knit and crochet are Jake's birthday presents. His birthday is 2 months away, and so far I'm making him longies (coolest wool EVER, it's thick and thin in a light blue, deep blue and purple gradient), and a sweater (dark teal-y, sport weight alpaca). I'm sure I see a hat in his future, too, though, and possibly some socks as well.
For now, though...for now it's all about FOLDING LAUNDRY. Possibly for hours, until Grant and Ananda get home from a birthday party and we can go to ArtSouth and see Alex's painting show.
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Date: 2006-08-13 01:14 am (UTC)I do have some guilt about my father supporting us, so that really hurts me. But I also remember that is why family exists, to help each other. If any of my kids (all four of them) wanted to live with me and whatnot, I would gladly help them. If my dad is unable to live by himself and needs to live with us one day, I won't see it as leeching. I know it's hard to for you to relate to the idea of family because yours is so fucked up.
Christians are people that have accepted the forgiveness of Jesus for their sins. Not people who abide every law of God. We try to, yes...But it's really hard. God knows that and thus he sent His Son for our forgiveness. But, I don't expect a narrow-minded person like yourself to understand that.
We don't want you in our lives. Please stop reading Tina's journal and mind your own business.
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Date: 2006-08-13 01:24 am (UTC)And Christians don't fall into temptation. Let's not forget you sinned and sinned and postponed doing the right thing right?
If families are there to help each other. Why do you two resent your dad helping Mindy so much?
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Date: 2006-08-13 01:42 am (UTC)Christians DO fall into temptation. That's what the whole thing is about. Do you even know what Christianity is?
Neither Tina nor I resent my dad for helping my sister. Not that he does anyway...
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Date: 2006-08-13 01:50 am (UTC)Yes they do fall into temptation. But over and over again? Fornicating without the sacrament of a marriage is wrong. How many times did you two do that? What was it immaculate conception? Was that how the next two that aren't as important to you happened? Oh that's right, you two wanted a nice wedding forget about your souls right? Vanity is MORE important. Having that nice wedding is more important than the soul. That is such a Christian thing to do.
I know enough about Christianity to know not to judge like you did. Did you not judge someone's family as being "fucked up" in the above statement? Umm yes, I believe you did.
He helps her in little ways. Taking care of her kids. Wasn't Tina the one complaining when Mindy's kid was there using up things? Isn't Tina always complaining when Mindy comes over to HER OWN father's house to visit? Tina forgets that he is Mindy's father and not hers. That he is in fact more Mindy's family than she is.
Umm yeah she totally suckered you into Annie didn't she?
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Date: 2006-08-13 02:01 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2006-08-13 02:42 am (UTC)Why are you getting on my case by think Mindy is all nice? Did you know she is in jail right now for attempted 1st degree murder by shooting someone in a car? This is after a long drug binge.
What is your problem, freak?
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Date: 2006-08-13 02:48 am (UTC)I'm not perfect but then again I don't claim to be a Christian.
Tsk, tsk. Name calling is so nice.
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Date: 2006-08-13 01:26 pm (UTC)Tina and GRANT are simply living, and raising children with the childrens' well being in mind. How can that be so wrong.
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Date: 2006-08-13 02:43 am (UTC)