Appointment, and *the show is starting soon*

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I had a prenatal today, and it made me feel so much better. I think that because I've been having so much start-and-stop contraction action, I've had a sort of unarticulated fear in the back of my mind that maybe my body DOESN'T work. Like, everytime a few hours of regular, painful contractions come and then stop again, I try not to think that maybe it's not just that I'm not going into labor NOW...maybe it's that I'm never going to. That my uterus has never done what it's supposed to do, that my body thinks the baby is going to be automatically removed by outside forces, that I've been ruined or broken by interventions. That I've been kidding myself all along to think otherwise.

I can consciously think and say all these things now because they don't feel true anymore.

Anyway, nothing overly crazy or significant happened at the appointment. Shari is just awesome, and I got her, and somehow even though I know that I shouldn't need anyone's affirmation...it sure is nice.

Basically, I was right and the baby has dropped/engaged and is down low now. When I talked up the prodromal labor stuff to her, she said "Good! That means your uterus is doing something" cheerily, and then went on to feel my still-tight cervix and say that she thinks that based on my due date, history and current cervical state, plus the phases of the moon, she thinks it'll probably be around October 7. Which would be Grant's birthday. His heartrate is great, she would guess 7 3/4 pounds right now, and I've lost a pound.

Somehow I seriously came out of all this glowingly pleased, like "Everything IS going fine! I am a textbook case of natural 3rd trimester goodness!"

Also, I got a postcard from them in the mail yesterday, because the reality series that Discovery has been filming there starts on the 26th. For anyone who gets Discovery Health, it is going to be airing at 8 am, 12 pm, and 3 pm. You can go to http://www.health.discovery.com and see the episode summaries or your own viewing times - the show is called "House of Babies". I'm insanely excited about this. For the record, I don't know if I'm on it or not, so far. They're still there filming and will be until January, so far they've filmed one of the childbirth classes Grant and I were at, and one of my sessions with the chiro, but I have no way of knowing if I'll be edited out or whatever. I'm still up in the air about them filming The Birth. I'm torn between a tremendous urge towards advocacy, and "Leave me the heck alone for this". There is a vbac episode in the first few that are ready for airing already, but I don't think I'm included in that anywhere. Everyone who can has to watch!!

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it's so good that you're feeling good!!!!