I hear you. Every so often I come across someone who has major shit to deal with from the pain of a natural birth, or INTENSE tearing from their homebirth, and who feels all extra-super-jaded because they feel they were doing it all in the "easy to live with" way against all odds...
Honestly, I was incredibly bonded with Ananda in the first few months. First few hours! I didn't feel at all anti-cesarean after that experience, or like I had missed out on anything. Those things came later, after I had a misdated baby pulled out premature, after spinal hematomas and hospital-GIVEN infections and sponges left behind. And NOW, on the other side of it all, I look back and I feel very upset about how different the Annie thing could have went down.
But overall, I feel she's been harmed, herself, far more for me dissapearing into hospital stays and surgeries with her siblings, as she's grown, than by her own birth experience.
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Date: 2009-08-11 12:32 pm (UTC)Honestly, I was incredibly bonded with Ananda in the first few months. First few hours! I didn't feel at all anti-cesarean after that experience, or like I had missed out on anything. Those things came later, after I had a misdated baby pulled out premature, after spinal hematomas and hospital-GIVEN infections and sponges left behind. And NOW, on the other side of it all, I look back and I feel very upset about how different the Annie thing could have went down.
But overall, I feel she's been harmed, herself, far more for me dissapearing into hospital stays and surgeries with her siblings, as she's grown, than by her own birth experience.