I remember fainting like Ananda did when I went to the dentist after my dwarfism treatment. Five months earlier I had perfect teeth and I remember stanading at the counter when he pulled out the chart and starts counting, "one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten..." and all the blood rushed away from my face. I couldn't hear and I felt like I was going to throw up. I remember saying, "I'm going to throw up" to my mom but I couldn't hear myself talk. And then I woke up on the floor and my head hurt. Everyone was kind of laughing at me, but I really didn't even notice and it didn't occur to me that was mean or anything. I was so incredibly disoriented that stuff like that didn't click. I was a REALLY shy kid and going down like that in front of half a dozen people should have been mortifying but I barely remember it. After opening my eyes and noticing the reddish floor tiles I don't really remember much except for part of the car ride, and then being at home in bed.
I actually fainted a lot as a kid, the earliest that I remember just a teensy bit older than Ananda when a kid in class was telling me all these horrific things about leeches and how their teeth will come out and get into your heart and you'll die. Then he put his hand in a jar and a leech stuck to his finger, when he pulled it out he looked honestly scared. I fainted. Again, jeering really didn't occur to me - I Was just too disoriented... so in that sense I think Ananda may not have noticed the 'you're not taking me seriously' part. I think it's good that you want to be more aware of her fears, but don't worry too much about lack of understanding. Generally when you're that scared and about to go down, you seriously don't even notice anything except what you're thinking of that's freaking you out.
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Date: 2007-03-14 08:51 am (UTC)Everyone was kind of laughing at me, but I really didn't even notice and it didn't occur to me that was mean or anything. I was so incredibly disoriented that stuff like that didn't click.
I was a REALLY shy kid and going down like that in front of half a dozen people should have been mortifying but I barely remember it. After opening my eyes and noticing the reddish floor tiles I don't really remember much except for part of the car ride, and then being at home in bed.
I actually fainted a lot as a kid, the earliest that I remember just a teensy bit older than Ananda when a kid in class was telling me all these horrific things about leeches and how their teeth will come out and get into your heart and you'll die. Then he put his hand in a jar and a leech stuck to his finger, when he pulled it out he looked honestly scared. I fainted. Again, jeering really didn't occur to me - I Was just too disoriented... so in that sense I think Ananda may not have noticed the 'you're not taking me seriously' part. I think it's good that you want to be more aware of her fears, but don't worry too much about lack of understanding. Generally when you're that scared and about to go down, you seriously don't even notice anything except what you're thinking of that's freaking you out.