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My sickness has carried on so long that I actually went to Student Health Services and saw a doctor while I was on campus, yesterday. Lingering sinusitis, suspected (possibly "walking") pneumonia, minor double ear infection. They gave me antibiotics, flonase (nose spray) and albuterol (inhaler).

I've never used an inhaler before, and it took me until this afternoon - meaning two doses in - to realize it was making me fucking crazy. I've had so many crying jags today that they blur together, and one of them turned into a long laughing fit. I've went to Grant, my friend Kristin, and my sister with desperate sadness about everyday shit. I made a somewhat hysterical, heavily filtered entry. I also dropped a class, which while probably a good decision with the month long illness factored in may or may not have been a decision I'd have made unmedicated.

Good lord. Not sure I'll be trying that anymore unless I really just cannot breathe at all otherwise.

I reacted similarly, years ago, to prednisone. This kind of thing is why I'm so hesitant about taking meds when I can avoid it!