Points of Interest.
Jan. 14th, 2006 08:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
altarflameFor almost 2 weeks now we've been passing around an illness, and I've been struggling hard with motivation and happiness. I'm still appreciating each of these people I love, individually, and still managing to do all the basics (nursings, changings, dishes, retrieval of sandwhiches and drinks, ordering people to the bathroom to brush their teeth and saying yes, you can do that, no, you can't do that....) But I wake up every morning feeling angry and desperate that I can't sleep longer, and drraaaaag myself around all morning and afternoon, fighting against my desire to call Grant and beg him to come home and help me all the while. I'm going through the rounds of PMS, sleep deprivation, feeling trapped (like no vehicle/not my house style, not trapped by my lil family), feeling broke, being sick, yada yada yada. I don't even generally want to write anymore because I'm tired of hearing myself complain, when I KNOW I'm living the life I've made and I've got plenty to be happy about.
Anyway. I made arrangements with Grant that when his employee got off today at 3 I'd go out with my sister. BTW, yeah, Liqwid Technologies now has an employee! Just a part time high school kid who makes $150 a week, but hey. It's a damned employee. Anyway, said employee worked until 3 at Grant's out-of-house office today, so he was there, too, and then Laura and I took Jake and left. I had an Old Navy giftcard from christmas shrunk down to $13, and $7 in cash. I was totally amazed to find a big hardcover picture and story book that I want Ananda and I to read for only $6.25 at Barnes & Noble, and be able to get TWO long sleeved shirts for me, a tank top for Laura and a sweater for Isaac, with my remaining GC. Totally amazing Day o' Bargains. Jake nursed before we went in the bookstore, got changed before we went in Old Navy, and was a cooing happy adorable bundle of freakin joy the rest of the time. I'm so glad he doesn't mind the car anymore. I felt guilty even using my stupid Giftcard at Old Navy after the research I did on the company a couple of weeks ago - it's a tug o war in my mind, like,
"But - but - it's SO CHEAP - "
"You KNOW WHY it's 'so cheap', though, and it ain't pretty"
"$1.50!! 1.50 for a freaking long sleeved shirt I could LIVE IN - "
"Yeah, no way IN HELL is anything ethically produced going to cost that little! OTHER PEOPLE are paying the price for you having that shirt!"
Luckily the money was already spent, and I just had to pick out my goods :p
I could totally spend $300 in Barnes and Noble right now, btw. I'd get Wicked (The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West), that new Anne Rice book that's actually pro-Christ, now that she's had her turnaround, and three different bargain fiction books I saw today - The Colour, and two others' that I can't recall the title of but all looked readable. And I would get this Mother Teresa thing Laura was telling me about, and the latest issue of Elle, and and and...I would also go upstairs for the newest Fiona Apple CD, Extraordinary Machine, and who knows what else. I saw an Edgar Allen Poe collected works and a Calvin and Hobbes collection I don't have, and all 7 Narnia books combined into one big book with two different amazing cover choices (both from the movie).
Anyway. Shaun was here earlier, and he recently bought The Big Lebowski, which is freaking classic and we'll be re-watching soon.
Tomorrow I'd like to go to church, and the farmers market.
This week I'd like to get the kids' room the rest of the way under control and school back on track.
This month I'd like to get married, when we get our stupid tax return.
This year I'd like to lose more weight, see the business continue to take off with the potential we've been seeing, and properly observe Lent.
Anyway. I made arrangements with Grant that when his employee got off today at 3 I'd go out with my sister. BTW, yeah, Liqwid Technologies now has an employee! Just a part time high school kid who makes $150 a week, but hey. It's a damned employee. Anyway, said employee worked until 3 at Grant's out-of-house office today, so he was there, too, and then Laura and I took Jake and left. I had an Old Navy giftcard from christmas shrunk down to $13, and $7 in cash. I was totally amazed to find a big hardcover picture and story book that I want Ananda and I to read for only $6.25 at Barnes & Noble, and be able to get TWO long sleeved shirts for me, a tank top for Laura and a sweater for Isaac, with my remaining GC. Totally amazing Day o' Bargains. Jake nursed before we went in the bookstore, got changed before we went in Old Navy, and was a cooing happy adorable bundle of freakin joy the rest of the time. I'm so glad he doesn't mind the car anymore. I felt guilty even using my stupid Giftcard at Old Navy after the research I did on the company a couple of weeks ago - it's a tug o war in my mind, like,
"But - but - it's SO CHEAP - "
"You KNOW WHY it's 'so cheap', though, and it ain't pretty"
"$1.50!! 1.50 for a freaking long sleeved shirt I could LIVE IN - "
"Yeah, no way IN HELL is anything ethically produced going to cost that little! OTHER PEOPLE are paying the price for you having that shirt!"
Luckily the money was already spent, and I just had to pick out my goods :p
I could totally spend $300 in Barnes and Noble right now, btw. I'd get Wicked (The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West), that new Anne Rice book that's actually pro-Christ, now that she's had her turnaround, and three different bargain fiction books I saw today - The Colour, and two others' that I can't recall the title of but all looked readable. And I would get this Mother Teresa thing Laura was telling me about, and the latest issue of Elle, and and and...I would also go upstairs for the newest Fiona Apple CD, Extraordinary Machine, and who knows what else. I saw an Edgar Allen Poe collected works and a Calvin and Hobbes collection I don't have, and all 7 Narnia books combined into one big book with two different amazing cover choices (both from the movie).
Anyway. Shaun was here earlier, and he recently bought The Big Lebowski, which is freaking classic and we'll be re-watching soon.
Tomorrow I'd like to go to church, and the farmers market.
This week I'd like to get the kids' room the rest of the way under control and school back on track.
This month I'd like to get married, when we get our stupid tax return.
This year I'd like to lose more weight, see the business continue to take off with the potential we've been seeing, and properly observe Lent.
