Thank you for sharing this. I had been wondering where you were with your spirituality. I personally have come through a journey of being brought up atheist, to being emotionally born again in my 12 step recovery, to coming to a place of "resigned from the debate society" and happy agnostic. I don't know what is on the other side, I can't know for sure, and for me, there is no point in thinking too hard about it. I can choose the life affirming and joyful parts of prayer and god and spirit and reject organized religion as a tool of control, and feel good about it. I can teach my kids that different people believe different things, and what some of those things are, and that they can believe whatever they want as they grow up.

It feels good, when I remember to lean into it.