Do you know that spiritual questioning can be a big part of PTSD? Having PTSD greatly influenced my decision to leave the religion I was raised in (Jehovah's Witness) and become atheist by causing me to have major doubts all of the time. I felt very conflicted, to the point of experiencing the most extreme anxiety I've ever experienced. In my situation, it was actually an additional trauma to leave that religion. But, the reason I'm commenting, is that one of the first doubts I had was when I was pregnant before the birth trauma even occurred. And this doubt was a nagging constant presence in my life until I actually left the religion. I didn't want my child to be raised in the religion. I felt it was fine for me, I could deal with it. There was good and bad and I could deal with the bad, but I did not want that for my child. I could not even imagine my son as a teenager without getting very anxious because I did not want him to live like that, but I also did not want him to die because I wasn't requiring him to live like that. I wanted to raise him in the religion so that he would have everlasting life, but I also wanted him to have things that would enrich his life that the religion forbid.

Anyway, I know my situation is much more extreme and it doesn't totally apply to you. But I've been reading all your questionings and thinking that is pretty typical of PTSD. Then reading this post about how you don't really want to raise your children Catholic struck a nerve with me. I'm not suggesting that you become atheist or anything, but perhaps just stay away from organized religion for a time, or stick with one that you would want to raise your children as.