altarflame | First Week of Lent, aside from the Lent part (Reply)

I made three things for the first time this past week; a roast chicken, fresh bread, and iced tea. You can tell I am neither white nor from a typical family in that I've been cooking new things from scratch for years but am only now venturing out into this sort of territory. The chicken, oy, I was so happy with it. I made an herb butter and rubbed it into the skin and stuffed it and all - I suppose I also made stuffing for the first time but it seemed like part of the chicken, even though the overflow went into a casserole dish. The bread was for communion at the local Disciples of Christ church, where there is no longer a volunteer baker. It came out very well, too, and was well received. I love the feeling of it as an offering I can give. It was Nigella Lawson's "Basic White Loaf". And tea, yeah, I just followed the directions on my english breakfast tea package but it was still fresh and sweetened "to taste", by golly.

I also made four custom order dolls, and bought some new yarn. If I made 4 dolls every week that would be $400 a month for us in crochet earnings. I find that kind of wild. If only I could teach all the kids to do it, too :p Ananda actually asks, but she's left handed and I find it impossible to make sense of whenever I sit down and try to reverse it all with her. I updated with pics of the dolls and yarn over at

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Grant landed the bank as a customer - they finally got back to him about the proposal he submitted in December, and he beat out the competition :D It's a $5000 site, and will be $500 a month in regular income for maintenance and updates, as well, after the initial design. He also got his first commission check for websales from the winery, which is very cool as he poured WEEKS into that last Fall. There've been a few "How am I going to pay Jon?" (the employee) weeks since the first of the year but everything is really falling into place now. It coincides beautifully with him "giving it all up to God" and I dig that. He does invoicing for all of his regular customers on the first of every month, and it came to like $2800 this time. We only get half of all money that comes in - the rest goes back into the business - but it is still awesome. We might, like, NOT have creditors calling soon ;)

Aaron was sick all day, Wednesday. Nobody else seems effected but he was burning up all day. Thursday he seemed mostly normal. Who knows. He asked me to pump some milk for him, I was really surprised. The last time I tried to slip him breastmilk in his cereal when he was sick he was on to me and made sure to ask specifically for COW milk for cereal the next few times he got it, with a knowing raised eyebrow.

Last night he was going to tell me something but then stopped and looked thoughtful, with his eyes going back and forth, for awhile. Finally he looked up at me and said, "I can't find it."

Isaac is a nervous wreck. He is terrified of everything. I mean everything. He goes from convulsing and yelling on the changing table because he can see a car out the window that scares him, to trying to claw his way back into the house when he sees the moon outside and it scares him. Anytime anyone comes in, knocks, calls or is mentioned he clutches his chest and yells that who/whatever it is scares him. Normal playing like growls or chasing that we normally all love is horrifying for him right now. It's driving me nuts. Some things I've read and my own mother's intuition tell me that he is transitioning from complete fearless ignorance to being aware that some things out there really can actually hurt him, and that this is just his tyrannical way of realizing he is not invincible...but I'm still ready for it to be done. He actually told me that he was scared to nurse once a couple of days ago, saying the milk scared him o_O

I spent an hour going through a cookbook with Ananda one page at a time, a big ol' Moosewood Collective vegetarian thing. We earmarked about 20 things to try in the coming weeks and she was cracking me up the whole time we went through it. It's a strange irony, the way these kids are; I showed them the raw, whole chicken I roasted and Aaron was horrified and teared up before I sent him away. He really saw it as a headless, bald corpse. Yet he LOVES meat and would eat nothing else if I let him. Ananda hates the taste and texture but truly LOVES hunting ants and calling a cow by the road dinner makes her laugh. She's bloodthirsty, I'm telling you. We were exploring the cavity of this chicken and talking about spines and ribcages and stuff, she wanted to see the heart in the bag of giblets (barf). All while Aaron was out in the living room playing alone because he'd cry otherwise.

And then there is Jake. Warm against me while I sleep, grinning at me in the morning, small in my arms and laughing like a loon whenever I tickle him. Jake with his tiny teeth and big smile and huge, dark eyes. All of his baby hair but a tiny bit right at the top fell out and left him nearly bald, but he's getting new hair in now and I can't get enough of the feel of it on my cheek. We found a nearly new excersaucer at the Farmer's Market sitting out randomly, unclaimed and free (no really) and he adores it. I wasn't even going to buy any contraptions this time around, but I am a sucker for the sight of him spinning the seat, playing with the toys and generally having the time of his (admittedly short) life.

Now for the real update -

We had tea out in the Everglades today, on Anhinga Trail. It was the iced tea I mentioned.

We saw a lot of alligators, and Ananda spotted a large bird right below us eating a significantly sized fish.

Jake, with his free saucer. He moves around too much to get in focus well, which is not fair, because he is so cute.