I understand why you would want to share. But you aren't taking into consideration that I've spent almost a year on public soul searching and rants and self discovery, to be ready for a vbac, and ALL of the people who really understand that are here on my friends' list. It's humbling and embarassing to have ended up where I am now, and I definitely would have preferred the opportunity to tell the most valued people on my list within the context of the whole story. I wasn't ready to share yet - I still want to hide under a rock. I've been mentally preparing for the update I'll write, crying, and it would have been better to not come to my comment page and find out everyone already knows because you called my house and found out and casually mentioned it...